Laura Henshaw

And I woke up and I was like, oh my God, why didn't you get up earlier?

Like today my mum was there.

Like I could have got more work done, like et cetera, et cetera.

Which like in the first three months, I would never have done that to myself.

I would have just accepted that and be like, that's fine.

Like keep sleeping, you know?

So that's one thing.

And then the second thing, so giving myself less grace because I feel like you start to go back into more normal-ish life, like not, of course, like not completely back to normal yet.

Everyone's different.

But you then forget that you are still like quite early on

but I think because I'm not like fresh postpartum, I feel like I have to get it all right and I have to be productive and all those things.

So that's one thing.

And then the second thing is my anxiety is getting really bad.

And I, it's interesting that the first three months again, like I definitely had it sometimes, but it wasn't,

super it wasn't like really bad at all I for context for anyone that maybe is a new listen to the podcast or also like I haven't spoken a lot about my anxiety for a long time I haven't had it for a long time so maybe if you've listened in the past maybe three years I wouldn't have spoken about it much because it's something that kind of went away which I was very grateful for

I knew postpartum it was something that could come back.

So I was very aware of that.

But I think it is now come back to a point where it's starting to impact me very much.

And I think for me, it's because it's in my body.

Like it's I'm starting to and it's interesting, like it's when something that I would usually have been able to deal with very easily comes through.