Lauren

I'm really sorry.

I've never posted on Reddit before.

I've always just kind of lurked.

I wasn't sure how I'm supposed to give an update.

I replied to a comment, but I didn't know if that was correct.

So here is the update.

Thank you all for your comments.

It means a lot to have so much support and validation.

I knew right away deep down that this was wrong, but I needed validation as bad as that sounds.

I don't have close family or many friends.

so hearing that my feelings are normal makes me feel less alone.

This happened a couple of days ago, and I'm still staying with my fiancé right now, but things are tense and I feel anxious pretty much all of the time.

He knows I'm upset and knows I need space, so he hasn't tried to talk about it since.

He knows I'm considering calling off the engagement, which is why I think he's been so sensitive around me the last couple of days.

He hasn't been acting like it's a positive thing anymore and seems pretty remorseful, since I told him how much it hurt me.

This morning, I asked him if he knew about it the whole time, and he told me that his parents started making comments without his knowledge, and after he overheard a comment they made to me while over at his parents' house, he asked them privately why they said that, and they explained that they were testing me.

He decided to let them continue just to see what I would do.

From past interactions with his parents, I also know he has a hard time standing up to them or disagreeing with them, so it honestly makes sense that he didn't call them out and just started going along with it.

They told him that they were offended when I suggested an expensive resort for the honeymoon and made a comment insinuating that his parents would be paying for it.

They got it in their head that I just expected them to shoulder the cost of an expensive resort without question, which isn't true.