Leila Hormozi

They got divorced. They separated when I was nine. Gotcha.

Correct. Yeah. And she'd been a great mom before that. But when that happened, I just completely shut down. And the way that I was able to do anything was just, I was numb. It was like, I wasn't angry. I also wasn't happy. I was just...

Correct. Yeah. And she'd been a great mom before that. But when that happened, I just completely shut down. And the way that I was able to do anything was just, I was numb. It was like, I wasn't angry. I also wasn't happy. I was just...

like this flat flat yeah until i was 19 i got out of the house um and then i was just mad and i didn't know how to deal with that anger so i started drinking and then i started doing drugs and then i and it turned into this whole cycle and then i started getting arrested because i was blacking out and i was doing drugs and i didn't i don't even know what i did half the time

like this flat flat yeah until i was 19 i got out of the house um and then i was just mad and i didn't know how to deal with that anger so i started drinking and then i started doing drugs and then i and it turned into this whole cycle and then i started getting arrested because i was blacking out and i was doing drugs and i didn't i don't even know what i did half the time

And that's what got me to get arrested six times in 18 months. Wow. I know. It was just like. Six times? Six times. Yeah. You would think the fourth. Second and first.

And that's what got me to get arrested six times in 18 months. Wow. I know. It was just like. Six times? Six times. Yeah. You would think the fourth. Second and first.

I mean, it was not enough.

I mean, it was not enough.

Humiliating. Really? Yeah. Like I was very ashamed, but I didn't know how to stop.

Humiliating. Really? Yeah. Like I was very ashamed, but I didn't know how to stop.

a very low state at that time when you feel like crap all the time you just feel like crap again when you get arrested it's not very different okay you know what i mean so it if if now i were to get arrested it would feel awful because it's such a contrast yeah but you're like well this is my life anyways so whatever my life sucks so what does it matter wow yeah so um

a very low state at that time when you feel like crap all the time you just feel like crap again when you get arrested it's not very different okay you know what i mean so it if if now i were to get arrested it would feel awful because it's such a contrast yeah but you're like well this is my life anyways so whatever my life sucks so what does it matter wow yeah so um

During that time, what I recognized after some time is that I was at odds with my emotions. And I think what it was is that I tried so hard to never feel the way I had felt when I had been in that house with my mother that first I disconnected from my emotions. And then in my young 20s, I was at odds with them, meaning I would fight anxiety. I would fight depression. I would fight sadness.

During that time, what I recognized after some time is that I was at odds with my emotions. And I think what it was is that I tried so hard to never feel the way I had felt when I had been in that house with my mother that first I disconnected from my emotions. And then in my young 20s, I was at odds with them, meaning I would fight anxiety. I would fight depression. I would fight sadness.

I would fight frustration like I didn't want it. I want to get rid of it. And it wasn't until I was probably just in the last six, seven years that I was like, I can take them with me. They're not bad. And I started engaging with them in a healthy way and just changing my relationship with them rather than trying to stuff them down, suppress them, get rid of them. Yeah, exactly.

I would fight frustration like I didn't want it. I want to get rid of it. And it wasn't until I was probably just in the last six, seven years that I was like, I can take them with me. They're not bad. And I started engaging with them in a healthy way and just changing my relationship with them rather than trying to stuff them down, suppress them, get rid of them. Yeah, exactly.

Well, it's actually funny because I think that when I was 19, I would feel an emotion and then I would drink or I would do drugs. Then it turned into, I would work out, I would study, I would work. And so I just replaced it, which I mean, Hey, it was something a little more productive, but yeah.

Well, it's actually funny because I think that when I was 19, I would feel an emotion and then I would drink or I would do drugs. Then it turned into, I would work out, I would study, I would work. And so I just replaced it, which I mean, Hey, it was something a little more productive, but yeah.

I wasn't addressing it. And so it's still, I still felt very anxious all the time. I still felt very stressed. And so now rather than the moment that I feel stressed or I feel anxious, I go into action. I go into, I say, this is my mental cues, absorption, absorption, which is like, I absorb the emotion. I'm like, let it fill me up. Let me feel it. Um, now I don't need to indulge in it.