Leo Skepi

So, I've been figuring it out as I go.

Irritated, just...

angry resentful the anger had been like it started to wear my body down like my gut is the first thing like since i'm little if i get too stressed out or if i get too angry or i'm just like panicked if i'm in fight or flight mode too long my stomach

turns and like I shit water like I have fucking diarrhea so bad and then that starts impacting my sleep even more so I'm waking up in the middle of the night having to go shit and I'm just like mentally a wreck physically I start to fucking deteriorate ain't sleeping I'm not really eating and through this whole period of setting up the warehouse and getting everything situated I was smoking a little weed pen that I found that I forgot about I was like oh my god saving grace because I'm not eating

so if i can hit it at night to calm myself down because i can't sleep if i can try and knock myself out and also get an appetite i can eat and then fall asleep so that's what i was doing for two weeks i was smoking weed every single night to eat and put myself to sleep to stop stressing i would wake up

fuck and just start running again but I was working like 12 hour days at the warehouse like full-fledged physical labor mental labor everything you could think of I was getting it done I got that warehouse goddamn set up so this is something I need to tell you about that really sent me over and God put his foot on my neck and stomped it so there's this woman who runs a baseball team for disabled children

and she was posting videos like the kids usually will say like who their dream people would be to show up at one of their games and they pick their favorite celebrities and influencers and all that and the woman that runs this team made a tick tock and posted about it and then they named me the kids number one pick was me so my mom ended up seeing the video and it tugged on her heart

and she really wanted to like get me to go to it and she started messaging with the woman who runs this team for these kids and was telling her that like we'll be there like my mom wanted to go with me and like make me go to this thing i'm like okay when i first heard about it it was right before my pop-up and i was like okay it's in like a month month and a half i can

Plan for some point at that time.

This is before everything got bad, but I was like it's in the back of my head Okay, I'll tell them I'm gonna go like I would love to go do that You know what I mean?

Like I feel like it would be very heartfelt and with all the doomsday shit I've been feeling and how bad I've been feeling I was like that could be a good very heartwarming and like good experience for me like I kind of need that and then the woman that runs the team is

Comes to my pop-up in Houston, and she brings me a t-shirt she made, and it was the kid's logo on it.

In gold, she made it, and it was for me.

And I was like, oh my God, it's like I'm really committed.

Like, okay, I'll feel better.

I'll feel like up to it when it comes.

So the date for their baseball game falls right in the middle of when I'm trying to set up my new warehouse.

I had one day off, Saturday.

that I was gonna take off and finally just like rest for a minute.

And that was the only day I could have gone to the baseball game.