Leo Skepi

I have a new avenue of a new manufacturer I can go down that is nothing to fucking do with any of these rat pieces of shit.

And I'm like, okay, I have no hope to even go restart.

I'm like, I don't have it in me to go...

try this shit again with my warehouse being set up to relaunch my current inventory and put it back for sale i didn't even have it in me to do the last few steps to get it up and running everything's ready and waiting for me to just do a couple more things and i'm ready to relaunch it but

I finally got to this point where like it all came crashing down on me mentally.

This is something I've never experienced before.

And it truly scared the fuck out of me.

When my nervous system collapsed, it started with this insatiable feeling of discomfort.

Like I was itching inside of myself.

Like I wanted to crawl out of my skin.

I didn't want to stand up.

I didn't want to sit down.

I didn't want to lay down.

I didn't want to do anything.

I didn't want to put on music.

I didn't want to hear anything.

i didn't want to watch a video i didn't want to watch a movie i wanted no stimulation but i wanted stimulation at the same time i was starting to go like erratic like nuts because i didn't know what to do with myself it was like insatiable

I was like, I'm about to call my sister and tell her to come over here and sit with me.

I started to get thoughts of destroying my house.

Like, I wanted to start smashing shit.