Leo

If I could kiss you on the forehead, I would.

You were born to someone who was not ready to be a mother, and then you were adopted by someone who was never meant to be a mother.

Unfortunately, I want to reflect this to you.

I don't like the way that they did this to you.

I don't like anything about this situation because I know the pain that you live with now of the constant never feeling enough and never feeling chosen, like nothing I could do would make it better.

But one thing I want to say about your mom who was addicted to drugs, your biological mom, it is not that your mom chose drugs over you.

That is never a situation that comes up.

When someone is an addict, they can't choose themselves.

It has nothing to do with you.

It doesn't matter what you put in front of an addict, they will not choose it.

They're biological children.

That is the one intrinsic motivation you have is to protect your child and be there for your child.

Your mom chose drugs over that for what?

Herself.

And it wasn't for herself.

It was to escape herself.

She couldn't even be in herself, regulate herself to understand and even feel her priorities.

She was still disconnected from her maternal instinct.

It wiped out.

so she didn't choose drugs over you she couldn't choose herself does that make sense has nothing to do with your value especially with the addict mom so let me just clear that up for you and take that off of you don't ever run around saying my mom chose drugs over me no that is not what's happening with an addict don't make that your fault an addict