Liam Lawson

And it's just like, you don't know what has happened, what that's doing to protect you maybe.

Yeah, I honestly do.

I think that's, and it comes exactly back to that basically.

Like now, whenever I think about it, I think exactly what I said.

Now I feel like I'm a far better driver and a far more resilient driver.

And especially in today's Formula One with how much outside noise there is,

like really that's such, it's so much more of an important part now to be a good driver, to be a good, basically be good in Formula One right now.

You have to be able to drive the car fast, you know, but everybody can.

And it's all really that other stuff that you have to be really, I think, resilient to.

And I think that's something that I'm now more grateful for because there was so much,

going on around it so much noise at the time and like to navigate all of that was it was really hard honestly at the time like it was very tough but look at the evidence you now have yeah you have evidence that the hardest thing that's ever happened to you in your life you were able to deal with it yeah what was for you the hardest moment i think the china china weekend even like before i was actually out i remember

The hotel I was in was like an hour from the track.

It was really far away.

And the drive, some of the drives that I had between the hotel and the track, I was in the car and I was just sitting there and I was thinking about everything that was going on.

It must have been probably after qualifying.

I'd had a really bad quali and I was just really like really, I was pretty upset just about what was going on.

You know, like trying to just deliver a result and then

Yeah, just that whole, that sort of four or five day going back to London, being excited to just go back to work and then basically getting the phone call and just having, feeling like there's nothing, I don't know, like I wish I'd had a heads, I wish I'd known I had a heads up and just... There was not one part of you that thought that phone call was coming?

No, which is crazy because I remember thinking there was earlier a couple of rumours around that weekend.

There was like a start, there started to be a rumour about, okay...