Lily Collins

And you just literally said it before me. It's so true. Someone used that recently and said, you know, it's just a nonlinear journey. And I went, God, I love that so much. It really is. It perfectly defines the journey because you never know when it's going to be up. You never know when it's going to be down. You don't know when you're going to experience that setbacks, you know, going,

one step forward, two steps back or vice versa. Like you just don't know. And the idea of it being a nonlinear takes forever. Away that pressure of it being perfect right away and accepting the fact that it's nonlinear is so freeing in a sense.

one step forward, two steps back or vice versa. Like you just don't know. And the idea of it being a nonlinear takes forever. Away that pressure of it being perfect right away and accepting the fact that it's nonlinear is so freeing in a sense.

one step forward, two steps back or vice versa. Like you just don't know. And the idea of it being a nonlinear takes forever. Away that pressure of it being perfect right away and accepting the fact that it's nonlinear is so freeing in a sense.

But yeah, you kind of said it like you don't know what's necessarily happening when you're in it because you're so far in it and part of you wants to be there. At some points, all of me wanted to be there, but then... my body was physically reacting in ways that I've never experienced.

But yeah, you kind of said it like you don't know what's necessarily happening when you're in it because you're so far in it and part of you wants to be there. At some points, all of me wanted to be there, but then... my body was physically reacting in ways that I've never experienced.

But yeah, you kind of said it like you don't know what's necessarily happening when you're in it because you're so far in it and part of you wants to be there. At some points, all of me wanted to be there, but then... my body was physically reacting in ways that I've never experienced.

My skin was breaking out and I was having these panic attacks and I had kidney infections and all of this stuff that I'm going, I've never really had bad acne. I've never had heart palpitations like this. All of these weird physical manifestations, but I didn't at that time of my life

My skin was breaking out and I was having these panic attacks and I had kidney infections and all of this stuff that I'm going, I've never really had bad acne. I've never had heart palpitations like this. All of these weird physical manifestations, but I didn't at that time of my life

My skin was breaking out and I was having these panic attacks and I had kidney infections and all of this stuff that I'm going, I've never really had bad acne. I've never had heart palpitations like this. All of these weird physical manifestations, but I didn't at that time of my life

Put the two and two together as saying like your body is telling you this is not something you're supposed to be in. And it's only until this part of my life when I've really been able to associate physical manifestations and emotional feelings and situations into reality. One understanding. And a lot of that now seems quite obvious to me, you know, in relation to this relationship.

Put the two and two together as saying like your body is telling you this is not something you're supposed to be in. And it's only until this part of my life when I've really been able to associate physical manifestations and emotional feelings and situations into reality. One understanding. And a lot of that now seems quite obvious to me, you know, in relation to this relationship.

Put the two and two together as saying like your body is telling you this is not something you're supposed to be in. And it's only until this part of my life when I've really been able to associate physical manifestations and emotional feelings and situations into reality. One understanding. And a lot of that now seems quite obvious to me, you know, in relation to this relationship.

And a lot of it was he chose me. So that's cool. That's a big deal. And I leaned into what it was that he wanted. Wanted me to be like, wanted me to say or not say, where, not where, do, not do. There was a lot of control, a lot of emotional abuse. And, you know, when you get told something over and over again and you're at an impressionable age, you...

And a lot of it was he chose me. So that's cool. That's a big deal. And I leaned into what it was that he wanted. Wanted me to be like, wanted me to say or not say, where, not where, do, not do. There was a lot of control, a lot of emotional abuse. And, you know, when you get told something over and over again and you're at an impressionable age, you...

And a lot of it was he chose me. So that's cool. That's a big deal. And I leaned into what it was that he wanted. Wanted me to be like, wanted me to say or not say, where, not where, do, not do. There was a lot of control, a lot of emotional abuse. And, you know, when you get told something over and over again and you're at an impressionable age, you...

become conditioned to believe that that is what it is and you are what they say you are. And it's confusing.

become conditioned to believe that that is what it is and you are what they say you are. And it's confusing.

become conditioned to believe that that is what it is and you are what they say you are. And it's confusing.

It totally applies to me. And, you know, it was interesting when I was in high school, I was a part of a peer support program at my school, which completely changed my life. It was basically teen therapy and And I trained to be a teen therapist. And every Monday we would meet in a group of the same students from 10th to 12th grade. There were no adults in the room.