Lily

And it's not scary or sad.

I'm not feeling, I'm like not very sad.

I'm just like, that would have been cool if I could have done this before I died.

And then this little creature is pulling me around.

And then I guess as things keep going, I realize that the creature is Josh.

it's Josh and what I realized at my core in this trip is that you and I are soulmates we are literally one flesh it's crazy you literally were like my little guiding and then I'm starting to come out of it and then I'm seeing you like this a little bit and then I get dizzy again and I'm like there he is and then I'm thinking it's the end and I'm going I'm pleading with the Lord to accept my soul into heaven

It's terrible.

Yeah.

I was tripping so hard that I literally just stopped breathing.

Like this.

And also, Josh said my eyes are wide open and I'm doing this the whole time.

And then the nurse is like, breathe, Lily.

And she's like, breathe.

And you hear Josh, hey, Lily, breathe.

And then she takes my mouth like this.

And I go, oh.

And apparently the doctor's like, can somebody shut that door?

I know.

By the way, I can feel them pulling on my arm.

So like this whole trip is interrupted by me also feeling them.