Lisa Shroyer

We're doing this.

And she goes into the RV.

And now the RV is shaking.

And she's shoving stuff in bags.

And stuff is flying out the door.

And I just stand there.

And I realize, not only is this going to be a very emotionally hard process, but it's going to be a chaotic one.

And as so many things with my family, I realized I cannot control the situation.

I just have to participate in it.

So I go into the RV.

And we spent the next few days cleaning that RV out, getting the soiled stuff out, identifying the important stuff like paperwork.

My dad had a lot of cash and guns in there, and we had to deal with all of that.

And as we worked, I noticed that there was this fine red spray across the walls and ceiling of the RV.

And when your body decomposes, the liquids that are inside outgas, and it flows through the air like vapor, and then it hits a solid surface, and it goes back into a liquid state, and then the liquid dries.

So we've been in this RV cleaning up all of our dad's effects and telling stories, remembering his life,

And all that time, we'd been surrounded by his essence just painted on the walls of this RV.

So on the final day, we set to scrubbing.

And I've got all this PPE on.

It's so hot.

I'm sweating inside all of this stuff.