Lizzo

And sometimes when you fight, it get real messy. I was scrapping. I was fighting for my life. There was times when it was like, you want to die? Okay, we'll just die. Like nobody will care. And I was like, oh, I'm talking to myself like that? When did this happen? I'm like, love yourself. I'm like, stay positive. I'm like, no, you have to live. You have to live for your mommy.

And sometimes when you fight, it get real messy. I was scrapping. I was fighting for my life. There was times when it was like, you want to die? Okay, we'll just die. Like nobody will care. And I was like, oh, I'm talking to myself like that? When did this happen? I'm like, love yourself. I'm like, stay positive. I'm like, no, you have to live. You have to live for your mommy.

You have to live for the... And it was like, no, bitch, you want to die? Die. Like, this is the time to do it. Because nope, everyone will hate you and nobody cares. And I think that defensiveness isolated me really bad. But there's something about isolation. that turns into solitude, that turns into introspection, that turns into, I am sitting alone with myself and I can finally see her.

You have to live for the... And it was like, no, bitch, you want to die? Die. Like, this is the time to do it. Because nope, everyone will hate you and nobody cares. And I think that defensiveness isolated me really bad. But there's something about isolation. that turns into solitude, that turns into introspection, that turns into, I am sitting alone with myself and I can finally see her.

I was covered up by so much that I couldn't see myself. I was blinded by all these people in my space telling me who I am. I was blinded by my career, standing on stage and 20,000 people saying, I love you. You're amazing. I'm like, okay, thank you. I got to push through. I was never alone. I was never alone. Even when I was at home, I'd be like, you want to come over? Let me throw something.

I was covered up by so much that I couldn't see myself. I was blinded by all these people in my space telling me who I am. I was blinded by my career, standing on stage and 20,000 people saying, I love you. You're amazing. I'm like, okay, thank you. I got to push through. I was never alone. I was never alone. Even when I was at home, I'd be like, you want to come over? Let me throw something.

Let me throw a pool party. Let me have people come over and drink wine. Like maybe it was a fear of being alone with myself. Maybe it was a lack of self-awareness. But in that isolation where I think my defensiveness had pushed off and pushed away the people I love the most, I pushed them all away. I got to like sit with them.

Let me throw a pool party. Let me have people come over and drink wine. Like maybe it was a fear of being alone with myself. Maybe it was a lack of self-awareness. But in that isolation where I think my defensiveness had pushed off and pushed away the people I love the most, I pushed them all away. I got to like sit with them.

this person and I saw the things that other people saw sometimes that aren't the coolest or the nicest or that I'm the most proud of. I'm like, you are, you're moody. You're uncomfortable. You forgot who you are. You forgot why you're here. And I think that during that time, I embrace that part of myself.

this person and I saw the things that other people saw sometimes that aren't the coolest or the nicest or that I'm the most proud of. I'm like, you are, you're moody. You're uncomfortable. You forgot who you are. You forgot why you're here. And I think that during that time, I embrace that part of myself.

It's like, okay, you're moody, be in a mood, but what do you need to do to make yourself feel better in that mood? And what can you do to protect yourself in that mood and protect others? Sit by yourself, bitch, read a book, learn how to finally consistently meditate, exercise, get some fresh air, get in the sun. And it was like, I forced myself to do that shit. That

It's like, okay, you're moody, be in a mood, but what do you need to do to make yourself feel better in that mood? And what can you do to protect yourself in that mood and protect others? Sit by yourself, bitch, read a book, learn how to finally consistently meditate, exercise, get some fresh air, get in the sun. And it was like, I forced myself to do that shit. That

I didn't want to exercise at first. Hell no. But I got one, got that cardio machine. And I was like, I never regret moving my body. I never regret it. I started, it's an anxiety technique. It's like you focus on your senses. Like, what can I smell? What can I taste? What can I see? What can I feel? And I started doing that. Not intentionally. I'm not a genius when it comes to this shit.

I didn't want to exercise at first. Hell no. But I got one, got that cardio machine. And I was like, I never regret moving my body. I never regret it. I started, it's an anxiety technique. It's like you focus on your senses. Like, what can I smell? What can I taste? What can I see? What can I feel? And I started doing that. Not intentionally. I'm not a genius when it comes to this shit.

I just started doing it. I was like, what are you eating? What are you putting in your body? You're putting things in your body that's making you sick. You know, what are you doing on a daily basis? You're bed rotting. And that's fine sometimes. But also when you're always doing it, your body doesn't move. You know, what are you looking at? What are you watching on TV?

I just started doing it. I was like, what are you eating? What are you putting in your body? You're putting things in your body that's making you sick. You know, what are you doing on a daily basis? You're bed rotting. And that's fine sometimes. But also when you're always doing it, your body doesn't move. You know, what are you looking at? What are you watching on TV?

I had to throw my phone away. I'm about to throw my phone away. I'm like, oh God, it writes itself. I threw my phone away. did not look at it. I told my team, I said, anything I need to post or anything I want to post, you post it for me. I don't want to look at that shit no more. And that was hard too, because I love the internet, but it's doing a lot of things that are hard to finally be like,

I had to throw my phone away. I'm about to throw my phone away. I'm like, oh God, it writes itself. I threw my phone away. did not look at it. I told my team, I said, anything I need to post or anything I want to post, you post it for me. I don't want to look at that shit no more. And that was hard too, because I love the internet, but it's doing a lot of things that are hard to finally be like,

this is who I am and I need to become, I need to love her and I need to make her the best version of myself. Because guess what? Even after all this shit, even after looking at this aspect of myself that I was like, wow, that's not my favorite part of myself. You know, after all the things I've been through, all the relationships that have come and gone in my life, I still deserve it. I really do.

this is who I am and I need to become, I need to love her and I need to make her the best version of myself. Because guess what? Even after all this shit, even after looking at this aspect of myself that I was like, wow, that's not my favorite part of myself. You know, after all the things I've been through, all the relationships that have come and gone in my life, I still deserve it. I really do.