Loribelle Spirovski

And at the same time, ironically, to strengthen my posture, everyone did that like COVID, like getting fit regime, right?

We either did that or the opposite.

I did the get fit routine.

And...

As I did with my work, I overdid it with that too.

So it was a combination of repetitive strain from working, from painting, and just going ballistic at the gym.

And it started out as muscular strain.

And I thought, whatever, I'll just, you know...

use one of these spiky balls and tenderize the crap out of myself because I really was treating myself like a piece of meat.

I had very little respect for my physical well-being.

I was just using it as a tool.

I was using it as a vehicle to get me where I needed to go.

So there was very little self-love at the time.

And then what really tipped the scales was

One night in early September, I woke up and my arm was on fire.

It was like the worst pins and needles.

It was like my arm wasn't there.

It was just completely numb.

And I panicked, obviously, and it happened every single night.

for a few weeks.