Louise Thompson

And that day when I kind of had that revelation, I thought, you know what?

I'm going to think outside the box a little bit.

I'm going to make today about...

Ryan, because I really haven't spent any time thinking about him in a very long time.

You know, and we was kind of just like in that phase where we're coasting and we're getting through and we're just sort of doing our own thing.

But I was like, today, maybe I'll make that my one thing.

And that felt quite like enlightening as well, because I just also it kind of forced me just to like take a gear change.

I don't need to keep on this motor, this hamster wheel.

I'll just stop, pause, try and answer that one question and try and do something, make it something really different every day.

And that feels nice.

I think another thing that I like to do, which is quite personal to me, is I love doing puzzles.

I'm such a nerd.

No, I love it.

Because I used to get quite a lot of anxiety when I sort of got around to parenting my now four-year-old Leo.

I used to panic that like we weren't I mean, it was especially hard when I couldn't talk to him that I was kind of in his company and I was like trying to think of the things that I should be doing.

I just found the whole thing really overwhelming.

And I'd be like, what am I?

what am I what am I doing like right now like I'm not talking to him I'm not like actively feeding him we're really just existing and so now I it's taken a while to come to terms with the fact that like it's important for a child to be able to do nothing yep so that they don't come into the same habits that we have um

And we do quite a lot of jigsawing together as well.

So I do quite a lot of it on my own because that allows me to concentrate on something that's outside of my head, but it just helps all the memories process.