Louise Thompson

They think like, oh, you know what?

I've spent enough time here in this country.

I think I'll try something new for a little bit.

Yeah, I'm so envious of those people.

It's like it must be like a life well lived having like different experiences.

I think I find that quite comforting knowing that like, you know, if it all goes wrong, there is the option to do that because you can always change.

kind of start again but but I this this year I think because we were off to a bit of a weird start with this IVF cycle and then actually my son ended up in hospital just for 48 hours in the end it was the reminder that like okay like every January I'm reminded that like life is

tough and like bad things happen even to good people and like don't like sprint out the gates like I can speed up towards the end of the year if I like have to if there are like targets or something I need to meet but for now like just let's just enjoy it and I mean right I mean it's it's a very complex

Well, I think I used to say that it was... I remember before I did a podcast ages ago, maybe it was with Elizabeth Day, actually, I was thinking about... I was worried about doing the podcast.

And I think I...

It said in my head, I was like, the thing that I was going to say, first of all, when I like got in there was like, because of my PTSD, I have loads of personalities.

So I don't know which one's going to show up.

And that you kind of reminded me of that because there are these different elements to you that want to speed up and slow down.

And you feel like really different people.

Yeah.

So like there's the old Louise and the new Louise and sometimes I do feel really conflicted.

I do feel like something's very different this year.

Like I do feel as though I don't care anymore.

I feel I feel like I've I feel I know that I have nothing to gain by trying to be so busy that I'm just like racing to the grave like that.

I'm just speeding up my days.