Lucy Greenwell

So Heather had been transferred into a loving home just days after being left beside a lonely Suffolk road.

So that's obviously where I went into foster care.

So that's about a week after.

We had the park across the road.

My best friends were in the village next door.

Yeah, we'd be playing outside all day every day and then come in for a home-cooked meal at five on the dot every day.

And always a dessert, which my friends always thought was amazing because they didn't have dessert.

You know, there was lots of jelly, there was lots of angel delight, lots of crumbles and apple pies and trifles.

And then I just kind of said, oh, I wonder, I did wonder a little bit about my adoption, as Laura knows about hers now.

And being dad, just naturally said in a Suffolk accent, oh, bloody hell, he said, I always hoped that your mum would be here when you asked that question because it's not so straightforward as your sister.

And then we kind of sat there in the car, in the car park of B&Q, and I just sat sobbing.

I didn't think, well, you wouldn't, but it didn't ever cross my mind it would be something like that.

And I instantly felt very little again.

I felt really young because it felt like it was too much information.

I instantly felt, well, you do, you just instantly feel rejected.

Like, you feel that you can't, that you're not really wanted.

Although I've had this incredible upbringing where I was so wanted, so loved.

Why didn't that person want me?

And I felt like I didn't even want to know anymore because it kind of ruined... Yeah, that that perfect childhood suddenly had something else laced in it.

It was a big deal for my friends and stuff.