Maddie

So I told him that I had brought the alcohol from home and that I poured it into my coffee and that's what I had done. And he could tell, and I had just started working. I had just woken up like, I wasn't drunk at all. Like I was fine. I hadn't even taken a sip of the coffee yet. So that was another thing back then. I was like, I wasn't even drunk. I hadn't even drank anything like bitch.

So I told him that I had brought the alcohol from home and that I poured it into my coffee and that's what I had done. And he could tell, and I had just started working. I had just woken up like, I wasn't drunk at all. Like I was fine. I hadn't even taken a sip of the coffee yet. So that was another thing back then. I was like, I wasn't even drunk. I hadn't even drank anything like bitch.

you knew what you were doing, you're going to chug that, had the GM not taken it from you. So I told him, I was like, you know, it's an alcoholic drink. I took it from home. I took the alcohol from home and I poured it in here and he was like, okay, well, I need you to go home. We'll talk about this later. I was like, what? I was like, man, no, like, just tell me right now, like, am I fired?

you knew what you were doing, you're going to chug that, had the GM not taken it from you. So I told him, I was like, you know, it's an alcoholic drink. I took it from home. I took the alcohol from home and I poured it in here and he was like, okay, well, I need you to go home. We'll talk about this later. I was like, what? I was like, man, no, like, just tell me right now, like, am I fired?

Like, what's going on? He was like, I don't know. He was like, I have to think about all this. You need to go home. Like, get out of my face. And I was like, fuck. Okay. Of course, I didn't go home.

Like, what's going on? He was like, I don't know. He was like, I have to think about all this. You need to go home. Like, get out of my face. And I was like, fuck. Okay. Of course, I didn't go home.

I walked across the street and went to the bar and got fucked up and told all the bartenders and everybody how I was probably going to get fired because I just got caught drinking as I'm like drinking at the bar. Just insane, insane behavior. So... I go home and then I wake up the next day. And by this point in my alcoholism, I was starting to get sick.

I walked across the street and went to the bar and got fucked up and told all the bartenders and everybody how I was probably going to get fired because I just got caught drinking as I'm like drinking at the bar. Just insane, insane behavior. So... I go home and then I wake up the next day. And by this point in my alcoholism, I was starting to get sick.

But I figured out I could like just have a little hair of the dog, like just one of those little mini bottles of wine. And it would make my shakes go away and it would make me.

But I figured out I could like just have a little hair of the dog, like just one of those little mini bottles of wine. And it would make my shakes go away and it would make me.

Um, yes. But then also by that time, like I said, um, I would just drink like just a little bit and then it would make me feel so much better. And then, yeah. And then I was just like working and sweating and whatever. I mean, I'm sure I felt bad, but nothing noticeable, like not then. So I got up the next day and I went in and we had a meeting and there was two people there.

Um, yes. But then also by that time, like I said, um, I would just drink like just a little bit and then it would make me feel so much better. And then, yeah. And then I was just like working and sweating and whatever. I mean, I'm sure I felt bad, but nothing noticeable, like not then. So I got up the next day and I went in and we had a meeting and there was two people there.

And as soon as I saw there were two managers there, I knew I was getting fired because one has to be there to witness it and then one has to be there to do it. And so as soon as I saw that, I immediately started crying. And he was like, you know, I don't want to do this. You are one of my best bartenders. You have crazy work ethic. But I am going to fire you. And I started crying even harder.

And as soon as I saw there were two managers there, I knew I was getting fired because one has to be there to witness it and then one has to be there to do it. And so as soon as I saw that, I immediately started crying. And he was like, you know, I don't want to do this. You are one of my best bartenders. You have crazy work ethic. But I am going to fire you. And I started crying even harder.

He was like, the reason I'm firing you is because this is not the first time you've drank here. He was like, and I know it's not the first time. This is the first time we caught you. And I was like, you're right. Like, I'm not even, yeah, you're right. And yeah, I went home and lost that job and cried, like really heartbroken. I don't know why that was the thing that

He was like, the reason I'm firing you is because this is not the first time you've drank here. He was like, and I know it's not the first time. This is the first time we caught you. And I was like, you're right. Like, I'm not even, yeah, you're right. And yeah, I went home and lost that job and cried, like really heartbroken. I don't know why that was the thing that

Really broke my heart considering I had just gotten a DWI at 19, but that was it. So then I got two more jobs after that. The job that I got after that is where I met my now husband. But I still was not over getting fired, and I was treating it through drinking. And I got my second DWI after I got fired. Three months after I got fired from the ranch for drinking, I got my second DWI.

Really broke my heart considering I had just gotten a DWI at 19, but that was it. So then I got two more jobs after that. The job that I got after that is where I met my now husband. But I still was not over getting fired, and I was treating it through drinking. And I got my second DWI after I got fired. Three months after I got fired from the ranch for drinking, I got my second DWI.

I was 23 at the time. No, 22. I was 22 at the time. So even just three years after my first one, not great. And that one, I... Try driving home. And then I had shown up to my second job, not the one where I met my husband, but my second job, like farther out serving again, drunk as fuck. Like I had just been drinking all day again, treating like my misery with alcohol.

I was 23 at the time. No, 22. I was 22 at the time. So even just three years after my first one, not great. And that one, I... Try driving home. And then I had shown up to my second job, not the one where I met my husband, but my second job, like farther out serving again, drunk as fuck. Like I had just been drinking all day again, treating like my misery with alcohol.