Maddie

So I've definitely disappointed them. But again, they've never really... And that's not their fault. Like, them punishing me because I drank to oblivion is crazy work. Like...

That's what I'm saying. Yeah. So I don't wish or like think back on it and be like, oh, I wish I would have gotten like punished more and that would have held me back. No. Like literally nothing was holding me back.

That's what I'm saying. Yeah. So I don't wish or like think back on it and be like, oh, I wish I would have gotten like punished more and that would have held me back. No. Like literally nothing was holding me back.

And I think also my parents kind of knew that. Yeah.

And I think also my parents kind of knew that. Yeah.

Yeah. And then after my first one, my dad had gotten his second. Okay. His second DWI and he got it while on a boat with my sister and my mom. So he got a boating while intoxicated, a BWI. Okay.

Yeah. And then after my first one, my dad had gotten his second. Okay. His second DWI and he got it while on a boat with my sister and my mom. So he got a boating while intoxicated, a BWI. Okay.

Yes, ma'am. Okay. So the same time I got my first DWI, dad was dealing with the BWI. So my parents were like not in a good place, you know. But through all of this, my dad said stuff to me, but I've also been like, go fuck yourself because you're an alcoholic too. And so I've also kind of blamed him.

Yes, ma'am. Okay. So the same time I got my first DWI, dad was dealing with the BWI. So my parents were like not in a good place, you know. But through all of this, my dad said stuff to me, but I've also been like, go fuck yourself because you're an alcoholic too. And so I've also kind of blamed him.

Which I shouldn't do.

Which I shouldn't do.

Yes, but only when they were required.

Yes, but only when they were required.

No. I'm also not religious. I grew up religious, but now I'm not like disgusted by it, but it's just like something that I feel very strongly about not participating in. Yeah. So that's why I've really found no – Desire. Because it is really faith-focused, and that's fine.

No. I'm also not religious. I grew up religious, but now I'm not like disgusted by it, but it's just like something that I feel very strongly about not participating in. Yeah. So that's why I've really found no – Desire. Because it is really faith-focused, and that's fine.

I didn't know that. Yeah. I'm not here to yuck anyone's yum, and that is okay.

I didn't know that. Yeah. I'm not here to yuck anyone's yum, and that is okay.

So, yes, I did go to AA meetings, but only because I was required by law. Other than that, no, absolutely. I did kind of like the victim impact statements or not the victim impact statements. It was some kind of like statement where like you had to go to a courthouse and other people who have gotten in trouble for DWIs and stuff like that come out and tell their story.

So, yes, I did go to AA meetings, but only because I was required by law. Other than that, no, absolutely. I did kind of like the victim impact statements or not the victim impact statements. It was some kind of like statement where like you had to go to a courthouse and other people who have gotten in trouble for DWIs and stuff like that come out and tell their story.

So it's not victim impact. I don't think I think it's like some other type of thing.