Madelaine Petsch

Yeah.

As you as well.

I've done, I mean, I, who am I to be impressed by you?

But I grew up like thinking you were just like the, the, the icon of all women for standing up for what you did.

Yeah.

I don't, your story is crazy and crazy and you're on the other side of it and doing this and reclaiming and that's really powerful.

at Ellen you know and it's just like how does that getting there right I just thought this is so backwards but you're also so much bigger than that now like you've done so much more that's the thing that I think is also so fucked up about publications is it's like they're going to cling on to the one thing that they think is going to be the most grabby but there's you've done so much more since then yeah that would be so much nicer to be recognized for

Well, I went because part of my anxiety for the other shoe dropping is control, which turned into OCD, turned into really bad like health OCD.

And because of COVID, like health paranoia and germ paranoia.

And my OCD got really out of control during 2020.

I've actually never spoken about my OCD before.

Do you feel comfortable?

I mean, it's a scary process to sit in that room.

Actually, I have funny photos of me trying to make it, like, funny.

I made my mom fly out, and I was, like, throwing a piece.

I was, like, really trying to do anything I can to not feel like I'm going into a crazy machine that clicks for five hours.

Right, I know.

It was really like, oh, my God, they're going to find something that says, you are crazy or something.

And I think I also was, like, a little scared it was going to say nothing's wrong.

And you're like, there's no reason for why you have anxiety.