Madelaine Petsch

In a way that almost felt mechanical.

And so getting more in touch with, like, nature, Mother Earth, using resources from the planet, like, really absorbing negative energy with certain things and removing negative energy and, like, I'm really back into, um...

identifying what's good for me and what's not good for me through my spirituality yeah and just like feeling more in line with my inner self i think it was really easy to get caught up in this is what it's supposed to be this is what it's supposed to look like and so for a while i was doing that and i think now i'm like back to just what feels right to me and spending a lot of time with it it started feeling like a chore like something i have to check off my list and it's like the opposite of what it's supposed to be

Monica, you took the words out of my mouth.

And I think that's why I had this weird, like, feeling about it where it's like, I almost didn't even say that when you said reclaiming because I was like, people are going to think I mean, like, I've got crystals.

It's like, no, I'm like.

And there is this, like, connotation.

to like yes she's an la girl and she's got she's got crystals on her bookcase and it's like no it's so much more than that to me and i think it did become really performative so yeah it's kind of like and then i got like really anti like that it was performative and i was like angry and i was like this is not what it's about like jesus christ like shut up brain it's about like what makes me feel best and aligning with bigger yeah i think it's just i think it's connecting that there's you know there is so much more there's so much more there's so many languages that

And so much of my spirituality is like the more in touch with it I am, the more in touch with my inner self I am, the more in touch with my work I am, the more in touch with humans I am, so I can sit across from somebody in a meeting and –

They can be distant from me or whatever.

And I can be like, oh, they're feeling weird because of this, this, or this.

And I can just feel energy so much differently when I actually am doing that work.

I think work is actually the wrong word for it because it isn't work.

It genuinely feels joyful again.

And that's kind of what I think I was looking for is like a lack of like chore and more of like the joy and like this connectivity that I feel with myself and like the world.