Madison Smith

I know in the back of my mind, he doesn't think that he did anything wrong in the middle of it. And I'm not even fully convinced at this point that I had been raped. So I needed to talk to somebody. I didn't want to be alone because it just felt weird.

I know in the back of my mind, he doesn't think that he did anything wrong in the middle of it. And I'm not even fully convinced at this point that I had been raped. So I needed to talk to somebody. I didn't want to be alone because it just felt weird.

And at that point, she had me write down what I had felt, what happened, and how it was making me feel. And then I showed her the bruises, and she just started crying with me. And then I stayed with her for most of the night, but eventually went back to my dorm. And it wasn't until the next day, so it would have been February 12th of 2018.

And at that point, she had me write down what I had felt, what happened, and how it was making me feel. And then I showed her the bruises, and she just started crying with me. And then I stayed with her for most of the night, but eventually went back to my dorm. And it wasn't until the next day, so it would have been February 12th of 2018.

I was sitting in my human anatomy and physiology class and I get a message from Alana and she had been checking in on me all day. So I just wanted to let her know I was fine real quick. So I open it up and she goes, Maddie, I talked to my mom and her mom's an EMT. And she goes, I really think we need to tell your parents what happened. You were raped. You 100% were raped.

I was sitting in my human anatomy and physiology class and I get a message from Alana and she had been checking in on me all day. So I just wanted to let her know I was fine real quick. So I open it up and she goes, Maddie, I talked to my mom and her mom's an EMT. And she goes, I really think we need to tell your parents what happened. You were raped. You 100% were raped.

We need to tell somebody what happened. And it wasn't until I read the words, Maddie, you were raped, that I believed it.

We need to tell somebody what happened. And it wasn't until I read the words, Maddie, you were raped, that I believed it.

And she could tell that something was weird. And I just kind of looked between her and my dad for a second, and I just ripped the band-aid off. I said, I think I was raped.

And she could tell that something was weird. And I just kind of looked between her and my dad for a second, and I just ripped the band-aid off. I said, I think I was raped.

In the little town of Lindsberg, we don't have a SANE-SART team at the hospital here, so we had to drive out of town for this.

In the little town of Lindsberg, we don't have a SANE-SART team at the hospital here, so we had to drive out of town for this.

And I went back there and I had pictures taken of my body inside, outside, head to toe, front to back, the whole nine yards.

And I went back there and I had pictures taken of my body inside, outside, head to toe, front to back, the whole nine yards.

Before I met with the county attorney, I was expecting him to say, these are the charges we're going to file and here's when we're doing it. In my 19-year-old mind, I thought that that's how the world should work and that's what should be done.

Before I met with the county attorney, I was expecting him to say, these are the charges we're going to file and here's when we're doing it. In my 19-year-old mind, I thought that that's how the world should work and that's what should be done.

Which, weird. Like, I understand that I'm legally an adult at 19 years old. But anyway, I start speaking with him, and the first thing he said to me was, I'm not pressing charges because this wasn't rape. This was immature sex. In my mind, I'm like, well, one, what the hell is immature sex? Like, that's not a legal term. Why are we using that?

Which, weird. Like, I understand that I'm legally an adult at 19 years old. But anyway, I start speaking with him, and the first thing he said to me was, I'm not pressing charges because this wasn't rape. This was immature sex. In my mind, I'm like, well, one, what the hell is immature sex? Like, that's not a legal term. Why are we using that?

I read more on consent, and I always knew that you don't do something without somebody's permission, but I never really thought about that in the sense of sex and my permission of somebody to do something with me, and I'm not saying that I haven't been educated on it. It's just I guess my brain didn't make that connection, so I read more on consent and what rape is and what it isn't, and I knew.

I read more on consent, and I always knew that you don't do something without somebody's permission, but I never really thought about that in the sense of sex and my permission of somebody to do something with me, and I'm not saying that I haven't been educated on it. It's just I guess my brain didn't make that connection, so I read more on consent and what rape is and what it isn't, and I knew.