Mallory Rubin

So when my flight landed from Sweden, I returned to the United States of America, landed in LAX.

And, you know, you're loading your phone.

How many messages will load?

How many won't load?

How many have I missed over these 22 hours of travel, et cetera?

First alert I saw from multiple people, our thread with Carlos and Arjuna, first thing Adam had texted me about was all the news.

So that was just like, you know, you let out an audible gasp, very sad, very awful.

We've had the pleasure now of covering four seasons of Buffy together.

We're still in the midst of our watch.

And as you know, as the bad babies know, I have just fallen so completely in love, not only with Giles, but with Anthony Head, because it's just such a...

completely captivating performance.

And it's obviously just like tremendously sad.

I think one of the, you know, one of the strange things about loss when it's like a public figure, right?

Somebody who you as a viewer or a listener, whatever the case may be, a reader, have a deep attachment to is that you feel this grief and you see then that other people who love that fictional universe, who love the performance, feel that way too.

And there's something shared about that.

And then of course you see

what the loss means to everybody who knew him.

And that was just so... You know, it's deeply sad.

It's very moving.

But there is, of course, an element amid the despair of, like, celebrating, celebrating the impact that he had on everybody.