Mari Llewellyn

It's really like starting to feel real.

I actually saw a TikTok video this girl made about being pregnant and like the rewiring that your brain goes through pregnant.

And it was so valid what she said.

She said, and she was coming from like a religious perspective where she was like, it feels like God is like showing me things like really closely.

And it's becoming really evident to me how grateful I am for everything.

And like the things I definitely want to do and the things I don't want to do and, you know, relationships she has.

And she was like, you know, anything that was like bringing her drama or, you know,

any negativity she was just like that's not for me right now and I definitely am noticing I just feel very clear on like my boundaries what I want to be around I think because of what I went through with my journey just like two years of struggle and let down and pain like I feel like I am a very empathetic person and I lean on the side of like even when I come here to do the podcast I I

I'm like hesitant to dive too deep into like pregnancy sometimes, or am I talking about it too much?

Or I feel bad for anyone listening who's struggling because I just know what that's like.

But I've had conversations now with my therapist and with Dr. Molly and just other people of like, yes, you can have those feelings, but you also have...

worked really hard to be where you are and you deserve to be happy and to celebrate it and I feel like I'm trying to really allow myself to celebrate it because I think I had like almost like guilt about it for a while I was like like wanting to be in solidarity with like people that are still going through it and I think that that's really valid and

I still do feel very connected to people who are struggling with fertility, but at the same time, like I need to give myself space to just be happy.

And I didn't mean to get all deep there, but I've just been having that epiphany because it's something I've been talking about a lot with my therapist.

And yeah, just sort of like this epiphany I've had of,

I even feel bad like making so much pregnancy content, but I'm so excited to make it and I wanna make it and it is my life and it's just, it's a lot.

And I think I'm in a place where I'm gonna let myself do that.

And for anyone listening who is, because I know I have a large community of girls who are struggling and going through IVF, if you need to mute me or unfollow me or not listen to the show right now, please do that for yourself.

Like you can always come back when you're ready

And I am not offended.