Maria

It's like, who is your friend? What is she doing? Where is she going? What has she got to offer at the table? What are you going to offer? Yes. What do you have to offer? And I was raised that way. And so what do I have to offer? So I would come prepared to the meal. I would come prepared to dinner. And I had the feeling that that's what was expected of me.

It's like, who is your friend? What is she doing? Where is she going? What has she got to offer at the table? What are you going to offer? Yes. What do you have to offer? And I was raised that way. And so what do I have to offer? So I would come prepared to the meal. I would come prepared to dinner. And I had the feeling that that's what was expected of me.

It never dawned on me that just being able to sit. alone with a person or just being on my own would be enough. And so I think I started to look at that. And I remember when I got separated, you gave me the gift of a meditation teacher. Yes. And you said... Meditation Bob. Meditation Bob. He came to the hotel. Yeah. And he said, I'm going to teach you how to meditate.

It never dawned on me that just being able to sit. alone with a person or just being on my own would be enough. And so I think I started to look at that. And I remember when I got separated, you gave me the gift of a meditation teacher. Yes. And you said... Meditation Bob. Meditation Bob. He came to the hotel. Yeah. And he said, I'm going to teach you how to meditate.

It never dawned on me that just being able to sit. alone with a person or just being on my own would be enough. And so I think I started to look at that. And I remember when I got separated, you gave me the gift of a meditation teacher. Yes. And you said... Meditation Bob. Meditation Bob. He came to the hotel. Yeah. And he said, I'm going to teach you how to meditate.

And I was like... How to quiet your mind. I could not. I could not. He realized after the four days that he was supposed to be there with me. He's like, I don't think this is a good time. to quiet your mind. But he literally sat with me from 10 seconds to 30 seconds to a minute to two minutes to that being now an integral part of my life.

And I was like... How to quiet your mind. I could not. I could not. He realized after the four days that he was supposed to be there with me. He's like, I don't think this is a good time. to quiet your mind. But he literally sat with me from 10 seconds to 30 seconds to a minute to two minutes to that being now an integral part of my life.

And I was like... How to quiet your mind. I could not. I could not. He realized after the four days that he was supposed to be there with me. He's like, I don't think this is a good time. to quiet your mind. But he literally sat with me from 10 seconds to 30 seconds to a minute to two minutes to that being now an integral part of my life.

But that allowed me to sit with myself, to be enough for myself and to start writing from this quiet place that I had never been in in my whole life.

But that allowed me to sit with myself, to be enough for myself and to start writing from this quiet place that I had never been in in my whole life.

But that allowed me to sit with myself, to be enough for myself and to start writing from this quiet place that I had never been in in my whole life.

Well, it made me get quiet, first of all. And it made me think about who am I now? How do I move forward if I'm not somebody's wife? If I'm not the first lady of California, who is Maria? How do I... you know, conduct myself moving forward. What does forward look like? And so I tried to stop myself, get quiet, and really think about who am I? How did I end up here? How did I end up in this place?

Well, it made me get quiet, first of all. And it made me think about who am I now? How do I move forward if I'm not somebody's wife? If I'm not the first lady of California, who is Maria? How do I... you know, conduct myself moving forward. What does forward look like? And so I tried to stop myself, get quiet, and really think about who am I? How did I end up here? How did I end up in this place?

Well, it made me get quiet, first of all. And it made me think about who am I now? How do I move forward if I'm not somebody's wife? If I'm not the first lady of California, who is Maria? How do I... you know, conduct myself moving forward. What does forward look like? And so I tried to stop myself, get quiet, and really think about who am I? How did I end up here? How did I end up in this place?

I just started writing. Well, you know.

I just started writing. Well, you know.

I just started writing. Well, you know.

yeah i didn't i had written obviously all the news stories i wrote that kind of but that's a different kind of writing i wrote gratitude journals you know today i went and i saw oprah we had a fun time this is what the day was like but this kind of poetry sitting there and just being quiet and realizing oh wait a minute i'm sobbing what am i sobbing about oh i'm lonely what am i lonely about when did i first feel lonely

yeah i didn't i had written obviously all the news stories i wrote that kind of but that's a different kind of writing i wrote gratitude journals you know today i went and i saw oprah we had a fun time this is what the day was like but this kind of poetry sitting there and just being quiet and realizing oh wait a minute i'm sobbing what am i sobbing about oh i'm lonely what am i lonely about when did i first feel lonely

yeah i didn't i had written obviously all the news stories i wrote that kind of but that's a different kind of writing i wrote gratitude journals you know today i went and i saw oprah we had a fun time this is what the day was like but this kind of poetry sitting there and just being quiet and realizing oh wait a minute i'm sobbing what am i sobbing about oh i'm lonely what am i lonely about when did i first feel lonely