Marissa

Rape is one of them.

I sort of grew up thinking that men could do no wrong.

In the LDS religion, everyone who is...

high up in the church.

Most of them are men.

They've done better now, but growing up that's how it was.

I think that most of the direction that I took throughout my life was from men.

I always had the impression that men were trustworthy and that men had the best intentions and that what men said was Bible, basically.

And I know a lot of people around me who also grew up in Utah, not even necessarily in the church, felt similarly.

Your job as a woman is to be there for men.

It's common everywhere, but especially here in Utah, people get married very young, and women don't always graduate from college.

They take that role as being a young mom, and that gives a lot of control to men.

I think in a lot of ways, if you have a good man, it works out.

But I think if not, it's a very confusing avenue for a lot of women to go down and to try to relearn and re-understand who they are and how they should be treated and the rights that they have.

I think growing up here has been a blessing in some ways.

I feel like I have been sheltered from a lot of things that happened, but it has also been a huge curse because when this did happen to me, I had no idea where to turn or what to do.

It wasn't until I went through this experience and I had experiences with the universities and with different people who were meant to help me that I really realized the severity of what happens even in Utah, even in the Mormon religion.

things that I saw in movies and meetings I had with counselors in high school.

I had an expectation for what I thought college would be, the way I would be advised and how I would be helped through my degree.

I was never spoken to about what to do in a situation like this, where to go.