Marissa

And obviously you hear about how hard going through the justice system process is.

And I was so naive to the process, but I still knew it would be hard.

And I knew that most likely I wouldn't be believed.

I just think it's important to say that

victims who go forward in sexual assault cases, they don't win.

And I don't mean that they don't win in the justice system.

I don't mean it that way.

I mean that they are completely torn apart publicly.

Even if charges do end up going through, they still have people who are not going to believe them.

They still had to go through this horrible process and they had to go through a rape kit that is so invasive and so...

demeaning in so many ways a sane nurse came in they're the nurse that perform the codar kits and she was god's gift to the world she was the sweetest woman she began the rape kit it is super traumatizing they take swabs of your body of your mouth of all of your private parts

And then they do an internal pelvic exam.

And it's a super invasive, super sensitive process.

And they take pictures of any bruising.

And they also take your statement.

I was already so sensitive from the rape that having the internal exam and even the outer exam, it was beyond painful.

And they try so hard to make it as gentle as they can.

But it was a super rough experience.

I was there for over six hours.

After they finished the exam, the victim advocate handed me a folder of different things that could help me, different resources.