Mark Kerr

Um, John had said something to me like, um, I guess it's like a parable where it's like, if you live your life and you've saved one person's life, you've had a worthy life.

Meaning that if somebody watches this and sees your struggles that you've gone through and sees the hope that you have in that in your recovery, it gives them hope.

Because what keeps you addicted is shame.

The shame of what I was doing.

It kept me quiet.

Who the fuck am I going to tell?

Right.

No, you don't want them to know.

Like, fuck no.

And so that shame is what usually keeps people... But if they see me in the film go through this process and this deep, revealing process of what was going on with me, it gives them an opportunity to go, well, I can ask for help too.

When you got through the film, how long did it take you to get clean?

Um...

I got clean off of morphine, off of the Nubane I was doing right after, all the way through the Volchancin, or all the way through the Fujita fight.

And I was clean for, started drinking, which is a whole nother topic.

But, you know, I hadn't done narcotics in years.

know probably like three years after that and then i started up again and then it was this process of like start stop start stop start stop and then the thing that predominantly dominated me was alcohol because it's socially acceptable easily accessible you know all these different factors of it and so that's eventually like i like i've said uh my so my mom passed away september 3rd um 1996.

And, uh, so my son knows this.

And so my sobriety date, September 4th.

And so my son asked me that day, September 3rd, he's like, dad, I know you need to drink today.

Uh, cause your mom died.