Markita

They're just trying to encourage me and help me in the labor. My doula was telling me she was kind of getting concerned. So at this point, they're helping me get into the shower. And I recall having contractions in the shower. Myself and Malik's father, we kept asking Jennifer questions. When will we know when to push? Like, how will we know that he's coming?

They're just trying to encourage me and help me in the labor. My doula was telling me she was kind of getting concerned. So at this point, they're helping me get into the shower. And I recall having contractions in the shower. Myself and Malik's father, we kept asking Jennifer questions. When will we know when to push? Like, how will we know that he's coming?

Like, I don't know how this is supposed to go. She would say, oh, I'll know by the sounds that you make or the grunts that you make. She's like, your body will know what to do. Your body will know. So that part was always unclear throughout the whole time because I feel like I'm grunting. I feel like I feel him there, like he's there and I want to come out, but he's not coming. I could feel it.

Like, I don't know how this is supposed to go. She would say, oh, I'll know by the sounds that you make or the grunts that you make. She's like, your body will know what to do. Your body will know. So that part was always unclear throughout the whole time because I feel like I'm grunting. I feel like I feel him there, like he's there and I want to come out, but he's not coming. I could feel it.

Like, I don't know how this is supposed to go. She would say, oh, I'll know by the sounds that you make or the grunts that you make. She's like, your body will know what to do. Your body will know. So that part was always unclear throughout the whole time because I feel like I'm grunting. I feel like I feel him there, like he's there and I want to come out, but he's not coming. I could feel it.

So while I'm in the shower, I felt something hard and I'm like, is that his head? I don't know. And if it is, why isn't he coming down? I get out the shower and the yellow fluid that I mentioned. So that was happening throughout the night and it progressively got worse. And now after I got out the shower, it was extremely dark. It was a lot more coming out.

So while I'm in the shower, I felt something hard and I'm like, is that his head? I don't know. And if it is, why isn't he coming down? I get out the shower and the yellow fluid that I mentioned. So that was happening throughout the night and it progressively got worse. And now after I got out the shower, it was extremely dark. It was a lot more coming out.

So while I'm in the shower, I felt something hard and I'm like, is that his head? I don't know. And if it is, why isn't he coming down? I get out the shower and the yellow fluid that I mentioned. So that was happening throughout the night and it progressively got worse. And now after I got out the shower, it was extremely dark. It was a lot more coming out.

It was so much like we had to put the towels between my legs because when the contractions did come, so much was coming out. And then finally, I'm like, what is this and why is so much coming out? A student midwife that was there with Jennifer said, She come in and she tells my family to use the chucks pad instead of the towels because they didn't have that many towels. Some BS.

It was so much like we had to put the towels between my legs because when the contractions did come, so much was coming out. And then finally, I'm like, what is this and why is so much coming out? A student midwife that was there with Jennifer said, She come in and she tells my family to use the chucks pad instead of the towels because they didn't have that many towels. Some BS.

It was so much like we had to put the towels between my legs because when the contractions did come, so much was coming out. And then finally, I'm like, what is this and why is so much coming out? A student midwife that was there with Jennifer said, She come in and she tells my family to use the chucks pad instead of the towels because they didn't have that many towels. Some BS.

But Jennifer didn't come in to do an assessment of like, oh, why are they using so many towels? Whenever she did come in after that, I had a chucks pad sitting on the bed and I said, hey, what is this yellow fluid? And she was like, oh, that's meconium. I was like, meconium? Because in my head, I'm like, you're not supposed to be seeing meconium. That's not a good sign.

But Jennifer didn't come in to do an assessment of like, oh, why are they using so many towels? Whenever she did come in after that, I had a chucks pad sitting on the bed and I said, hey, what is this yellow fluid? And she was like, oh, that's meconium. I was like, meconium? Because in my head, I'm like, you're not supposed to be seeing meconium. That's not a good sign.

But Jennifer didn't come in to do an assessment of like, oh, why are they using so many towels? Whenever she did come in after that, I had a chucks pad sitting on the bed and I said, hey, what is this yellow fluid? And she was like, oh, that's meconium. I was like, meconium? Because in my head, I'm like, you're not supposed to be seeing meconium. That's not a good sign.

She was like, no, I'm not concerned about it until it is green like that. And she points to my best friend pants. She had on dark green, army green pants. We were like, OK, we're trusting what she's saying because she's a professional. And so we continue on with labor. She had me do these exercises with the ball and she steps over and tells my family to step out of the room.

She was like, no, I'm not concerned about it until it is green like that. And she points to my best friend pants. She had on dark green, army green pants. We were like, OK, we're trusting what she's saying because she's a professional. And so we continue on with labor. She had me do these exercises with the ball and she steps over and tells my family to step out of the room.

She was like, no, I'm not concerned about it until it is green like that. And she points to my best friend pants. She had on dark green, army green pants. We were like, OK, we're trusting what she's saying because she's a professional. And so we continue on with labor. She had me do these exercises with the ball and she steps over and tells my family to step out of the room.

And I did not ask her to do this. And my family, none of them were in the way whatsoever. They were all helping me. They were quiet. They weren't making any commotion in there or anything. Later on, my best friend tells me, Jennifer went to my best friend. So my best friend is Caucasian. And she said, Since you're the only reasonable one in the room, I'm going to ask y'all to step out.

And I did not ask her to do this. And my family, none of them were in the way whatsoever. They were all helping me. They were quiet. They weren't making any commotion in there or anything. Later on, my best friend tells me, Jennifer went to my best friend. So my best friend is Caucasian. And she said, Since you're the only reasonable one in the room, I'm going to ask y'all to step out.

And I did not ask her to do this. And my family, none of them were in the way whatsoever. They were all helping me. They were quiet. They weren't making any commotion in there or anything. Later on, my best friend tells me, Jennifer went to my best friend. So my best friend is Caucasian. And she said, Since you're the only reasonable one in the room, I'm going to ask y'all to step out.