Martha Beck

Yeah.

Hmm.

Okay.

So here's the deal.

You don't want to make a violent life change all at once.

I tried that.

It's, it works, but it's extremely traumatic.

So don't do that.

What you've described is a life with no freedom, with no sense of freedom.

So it can't be enlightenment, right?

And you've got resentment and anger, which are your best friends, because they're sharply pointing you to the places where your freedom is most constrained.

And it's

that inner self knows that it's wrong.

Your mind is socialized to say, well, I've got to do all this stuff.

So how do I give myself enough bubble baths and time with trashy novels to restore me so that I can be an absolute drone servant of the human consensus again?

Well, I think what happens, you go

into the deepest resentment, and you start to dig yourself a tunnel.

In the Count of Monte Cristo, this guy is falsely imprisoned in a dungeon, but they give him a spoon, and he spends 14 years burrowing through solid rock with his spoon.

I don't know why the spoon lasts.

He actually gets out.