Matt McCusker

You're coming out of your twenties.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I still, I mean, I'm, I've gotten way better about it.

Do you watch sports?

A little bit.

That helps you.

That helps social.

I don't watch sports.

That's like my Achilles heel in social.

Yeah.

Polite society.

I'll go out and I'll be like, did you see the Broncos?

And I'm like, nah, man, I wish I did.

I wish I could share this with you right now.

No, that's a trick, man.

Whenever I find myself socializing, there is a part of me like...

almost narrating the events in my head as they're taking place and i'm going like what do i really want to talk about it's like i want to go home is what i really want to do and i'm like no you have to stay here i'm like all right yeah it feels like a you know not performative but it's just kind of like you know if i really had my druthers i would be chilling out laying in my bed right now yeah it's too easy to like get caught up in my head about like you know

the situation at hand instead of just living in it yeah you know that's something that like i don't know if being bone sober would fix that it probably would but i don't know i could not like i said i don't i don't because again i i try to not be like well this is what you need to do but it's like because it's like maybe over time you get like you know get exposed like um any kind of phobia if you expose yourself to the stimulus over and over and over eventually like oh this actually isn't that scary

Yeah.