Matt Willis

I was probably drinking like...

20, 30 drinks a day.

And I got back and I was on stage.

And I just felt like I was going to either die.

I was like three or four stone heavier.

I was carrying a lot of weight.

I had really high blood pressure from literally drinking all this.

And I had awful anxiety.

So I'd get on stage thinking I was going to have a heart attack or a panic attack from the moment I got on stage.

So those sets were like the longest hours of my life.

And having loved being on stage,

it just turned into this nightmare, which I just couldn't... It was the worst place... My whole dream was to be in a band with my mates, to drink as much as I wanted, and now I was here, and it turned into a nightmare.

And I got back off that tour...

Just about managed to complete that tour.

The shows went from like an hour and a half.

By the last show, it was like 51 minutes because I just couldn't do any more.

I got off that tour and my wife was like, you know, this is it, Roy.

You have to go and see some of that.

And I...

She hooked me up with a friend whose husband was in AA and I met him and he took me to an AA meeting.