Maya Umemoto Gorman

For me, I feel like my purpose here is to just like, you know, let people know like, A, it's okay.

Part two to that, like be with my friends and like love my friends and like love like my family and my life.

And like, if I could do a job, like if that, you know, or even just help people realize that like,

hey it's okay yeah like literally a it's okay and like if i can leave like a like one person being like a i met with dom yeah he told me shit's okay and i truly believe shit's okay purpose done purpose fucking done and i was and i was serving that purpose when i was working at nordstrom yeah doing customer service i was serving that purpose when i was like dead ass working at a gas station i was serving that purpose when i literally just fucking keep with my friends so it's just like for you to say that like it's a matter of

don't know the only person who told you that you had to know was another human yeah so honestly honestly and i will say rock on rock on because into anything into many things because that was like when i started going to therapy after church because you know i didn't think i needed therapy god forbid everyone deserves um everyone deserves therapy but like my therapist the number one question i came to her was like i don't know what i'm doing i'm so lost i feel so behind totally mind you i'm saying this 23

um yeah well no because they do be like that though right at this point i had like built a life for myself of course completely dependent on myself like i was just like if i fail i fail yeah i feel you i feel you and so i was like i don't know what i'm doing i need to get back on track i need to like whatever like this is like how i would come to her yeah and she was like okay well what's on track and then i'd be like well okay if i start doing xyz element op then it will be like this and then she was like

but like who said that's the track exactly and then she was like and then she was like you keep saying you don't know but like why do you who told you you needed to know and it's like girl everybody girl everybody well and then she was just like okay so let's like do this what if you didn't know yeah then like what what's so wrong with like not knowing yeah exactly and then i was just like

Because she was like, you already don't know.

Yeah.

So like, why is that like negative connotation?

Yeah.

Instead of like positive connotation.

Totally.

And then it's just you just like after after you're like, why do I fucking know?

Yeah.

Because I remember my number one fucking quote that I would come into therapy with was like, I feel like.

like there was like a course or a chapter maybe it happened in elementary school maybe it happened in middle school maybe I was like missed the day when like everyone realized like this is what we're doing and this is why it's happening and the older I get just the more I've realized like damn

I don't know shit about shit.

And, like, that's okay because, like you're saying, as soon as you accept you don't know shit about shit and you don't want to know shit about shit... The world opens up.

So I'm like, yeah.