Meggan Roxanne

And it really does show you who you are and your life can either become something great or you can fall and never get back up again. And I've been straddling both, you know, and the depression that hits after you lose your parent, there's an aimless, hollow feeling in your entire life. And it doesn't matter what or who comes into it. Again, with the people pleasing, It doesn't matter.

And it really does show you who you are and your life can either become something great or you can fall and never get back up again. And I've been straddling both, you know, and the depression that hits after you lose your parent, there's an aimless, hollow feeling in your entire life. And it doesn't matter what or who comes into it. Again, with the people pleasing, It doesn't matter.

You're not going to take that from me. I have to do something with it. And my therapist always said, the relationship that you had with your mother would make it 10 times harder to deal with the grief because you were very close. And I love that. I love the fact that I was loved and I loved something so powerful enough that without it, my life is shit.

You're not going to take that from me. I have to do something with it. And my therapist always said, the relationship that you had with your mother would make it 10 times harder to deal with the grief because you were very close. And I love that. I love the fact that I was loved and I loved something so powerful enough that without it, my life is shit.

And I love the fact that with the essence of that love, I'm reminded as to why I need to make a better life for myself. I think that is the best lesson I've gotten out of all of this. My mother would be telling everybody, even down to the man at the newsagents, that I have a book, you know? So it's for me to start doing that now, you know? I used to see her leave the house all the time.

And I love the fact that with the essence of that love, I'm reminded as to why I need to make a better life for myself. I think that is the best lesson I've gotten out of all of this. My mother would be telling everybody, even down to the man at the newsagents, that I have a book, you know? So it's for me to start doing that now, you know? I used to see her leave the house all the time.

Anytime she got change from a £10 note or £5 note, She'll put it in like her pocket. And anytime there was someone who needed it, she'll give it to them. There were so many people within our community in Watford that knew my mother. I get discount at so many different stores because of her up to this day. So I want to be that person now.

Anytime she got change from a £10 note or £5 note, She'll put it in like her pocket. And anytime there was someone who needed it, she'll give it to them. There were so many people within our community in Watford that knew my mother. I get discount at so many different stores because of her up to this day. So I want to be that person now.

I'm really trying to like get rid of this sadness so I can spread more light because my plan now with the good quote is like 10 times more intentional now. Because at first it was something that I needed, I needed the community, but now it's something that I want for others to be able to have that same feeling of like security that I had when I was building it. Because, you know,

I'm really trying to like get rid of this sadness so I can spread more light because my plan now with the good quote is like 10 times more intentional now. Because at first it was something that I needed, I needed the community, but now it's something that I want for others to be able to have that same feeling of like security that I had when I was building it. Because, you know,

when you're losing a parent, every time I speak about my mother online, I get a wave of DMs from people telling me like, this speaks to me. This is how I felt. And Jay, it's something that almost everybody is starting to experience because millennials, we're getting old.

when you're losing a parent, every time I speak about my mother online, I get a wave of DMs from people telling me like, this speaks to me. This is how I felt. And Jay, it's something that almost everybody is starting to experience because millennials, we're getting old.

Our parents are getting old and there just needs to be a lot more transparency and openness around the topic of death and grieving. It's not taboo. It's every day we deal with it. Um, But it's hell on earth. And I'm trying to do everything I can in my power to not make it that way. But some days take over.

Our parents are getting old and there just needs to be a lot more transparency and openness around the topic of death and grieving. It's not taboo. It's every day we deal with it. Um, But it's hell on earth. And I'm trying to do everything I can in my power to not make it that way. But some days take over.

And when they do, I give myself the grace to like, just from having a bad day when it comes to grief, I'll let everyone around me know and then I'll just switch off because I can't function. And then there are other days where I'm just like, oh my gosh, this is amazing. I'm happy to be alive. It's like this. But it's not as... heavy as it was three years ago.

And when they do, I give myself the grace to like, just from having a bad day when it comes to grief, I'll let everyone around me know and then I'll just switch off because I can't function. And then there are other days where I'm just like, oh my gosh, this is amazing. I'm happy to be alive. It's like this. But it's not as... heavy as it was three years ago.

I have a great therapist, a man called Michael Adams. He is somebody who's been working with me for the last two and a half years now. And I had intense therapy two hours, twice a week. And now I only do one hour a week. We've gone through it all. I've got so many notes that I'm

I have a great therapist, a man called Michael Adams. He is somebody who's been working with me for the last two and a half years now. And I had intense therapy two hours, twice a week. And now I only do one hour a week. We've gone through it all. I've got so many notes that I'm

writing for my next book when it comes to grief but I can't stress how hard it is to lose your mother if you have a loving relationship it's going to be 10 times harder if you're distant you most likely might have a lot of regret I don't have any regret I don't have any when my mother passed away I knew exactly what was happening she was transitioning you know there's a whole a whole story about that in itself that we'll have to talk about another time but

writing for my next book when it comes to grief but I can't stress how hard it is to lose your mother if you have a loving relationship it's going to be 10 times harder if you're distant you most likely might have a lot of regret I don't have any regret I don't have any when my mother passed away I knew exactly what was happening she was transitioning you know there's a whole a whole story about that in itself that we'll have to talk about another time but