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Yeah.

I don't know if it was traumatic, but it was just like,

I'm so over everything that I've been through and I don't want to keep, I don't want to live there, you know?

And it's like writing the book was very cathartic, but there was times where I was just like, golly, like, you know, I think the hardest chapter for me to write was my dad's.

That was like my hardest chapter because I'm still not over Bill's death.

Oh, I was robbed.

You know, I was robbed of my dad's last moments.

And I just feel like the people who were around him the minute he died didn't deserve to be there.

I feel like my dad left this earth probably more scared than he's ever been.

And nobody was there to comfort him.

And I think, you know, just...

that chapter was really hard to write, but everything else, it was more of like exhausted from telling the story.

Cause I've been telling these stories for ever.

And, um, I think it was more of just like ready to just get it over with.

And when you're writing chapters of a book, you get so consumed in it.

And I was writing this on my notes pad too.

So trying to write and do voice text on my notes pad was like, it just got exhausting.

And there was times that I just needed a break because I don't like tapping into anything emotional.

I'm a very cold individual.

I'm very cold when it comes to past trauma, I guess you could say.