Michael Chernow
👤 SpeakerAppearances Over Time
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And people around me were kind of like, oh, his father just died.
In my mind, I was like, this is a perfect excuse for me to just go double down on it.
And so from 20 to 23, it was just dark, just super dark.
I hated myself, truly hated myself.
People loved me.
They did.
I mean, I am who I am.
I care about humans.
Dying.
And then when the drugs shifted from...
predominantly like alcohol and cocaine to heroin, which was like the last six months of my addiction years, I was genuinely dying.
I didn't think so.
If I really think back on it, like I was still working.
I mean, I always had a job, legit job, always had a job in a restaurant, but I was dying.
late July, summer 2004, New York City.
I was with this woman in this apartment.
We were, you know, using heroin for probably three days straight.
Sleeping, getting up, using, you know.
And...
I had just used some heroin.