Michael Ellick

You could kind of get in.

So there was that.

People were sending me things like sympathy cards.

So my dad would come home.

Maybe he was that first day, but I think it was the second day of being in bed that he brought home all these sympathy cards.

And there was one I remember from this girl who I won't name.

But years later, I learned that she'd had a big crush on me, you know?

But reading the sympathy card and kind of reading between the lines, I remember thinking like, oh, she has a crush on me even now when we're 15.

You know what I mean?

At 15, I didn't know that.

But reading the card with the knowledge of what would come later, you know, I was putting pieces together, right?

And I was freaking out, right?

Like, I was just like, oh, my God.

I mean, again—

My subjective experience sitting in that bed is I've been trained as a Buddhist.

I've been trained in philosophy and religion.

I'm like – I don't know how to say this.

I'm a really open-minded person.

I'm open to the possibility that –

that my brain somehow produced this experience.