Michael Ellick

you know, maybe that would be okay.

But I was still attached to my old life, you know, in 2006.

So at some point, and I don't remember all of this, but I remember having a panic moment.

Like, can I just go back and forth or am I stuck?

And in that moment of panic, I thought about it and I tried to visualize where I was when I left.

And I tried to picture myself

you know, sitting on that cushion on my brother's bed in the apartment back in Queens in 2006.

And I did that.

I did that.

I was at school at the time and I visualized it.

And sure enough, that, you know, vision or whatever had this weird quality, like it was ringing.

It had that same quality, like that departure place, you know,

was similarly altered or just bizarre.

So I, in an impulse, stepped into it.

And my body kind of does this weird lurch again.

And I'm like, shudder.

And I am back in 2006 in my brother's bedroom.

initially I'm relieved because like I said, I entered this period of like panic and I don't even know why, but I'm back in and I am like, oh my God.

And I'm like touching the bed, touching the wall.

Is this a dream?