Michael Shawn Crahan (Clown)

and the mind that goes on in this.

And all my kids played it and I made a roller coaster and it's all Slipknot themed.

And I'm really trying to help behavioral health and mental health awareness.

So I'm there monitoring people

the way they talk and, you know, because I have kids of my own and, you know, games aren't, there's a lot of bad stuff that goes on.

Well, that's a hard one because I'm on a path.

I end up telling people these days, don't have kids.

unless you're prepared to look at them one day and realize that you're going to know that you're not going to be there for them.

And these are the facts that I tell you about.

This is what won't let me get up in the morning is these thoughts of not being here for the people that need me.

I can't handle these sort of life lessons.

So being a dad and losing a child, I just...

It's a fragile thing now, and it's been ruined.

You know, if one of my kids just randomly wants to call me up at 11 at night to say I love you, I see the name and I just go to negative, you know?

I figure this is not a good call this late at night.

Somebody's hurt, something.

And there's a, I don't know, it can't be a disorder, but I don't think it's a phobia.

It's like a, I don't think it's a disease, but there's a thing where people can't be happy

because they are convinced that something bad is gonna happen in one minute.

And honestly, I have that.