Michelle Williams

Because the story in Hollow, I feel within my own body that I am inherently weak. And over the years of writing it, I was actively working on cultivating this new story in my body, which is actually I'm really strong. And I'm very much capable of holding this younger self that didn't have me. It didn't have that sense of value and self-worth and strength.

Because the story in Hollow, I feel within my own body that I am inherently weak. And over the years of writing it, I was actively working on cultivating this new story in my body, which is actually I'm really strong. And I'm very much capable of holding this younger self that didn't have me. It didn't have that sense of value and self-worth and strength.

Because the story in Hollow, I feel within my own body that I am inherently weak. And over the years of writing it, I was actively working on cultivating this new story in my body, which is actually I'm really strong. And I'm very much capable of holding this younger self that didn't have me. It didn't have that sense of value and self-worth and strength.

This is the heart of the paradox, right? Like an eating disorder weakens you. An eating disorder weakens you, but you don't see it that way when you're in it. I knew that what I was doing was harming me. I could feel it, especially in the end when I was very sick indeed.

This is the heart of the paradox, right? Like an eating disorder weakens you. An eating disorder weakens you, but you don't see it that way when you're in it. I knew that what I was doing was harming me. I could feel it, especially in the end when I was very sick indeed.

This is the heart of the paradox, right? Like an eating disorder weakens you. An eating disorder weakens you, but you don't see it that way when you're in it. I knew that what I was doing was harming me. I could feel it, especially in the end when I was very sick indeed.

Like, I could feel, like, these warning lights dimly going off in my body of, like, this is not – like, something is very wrong internally. And yet I always found this mental acrobatics to justify my eating disorder as the only thing that would fix it. The problem, for example – okay, so – binging and purging, that felt awful. It was just a horrible experience.

Like, I could feel, like, these warning lights dimly going off in my body of, like, this is not – like, something is very wrong internally. And yet I always found this mental acrobatics to justify my eating disorder as the only thing that would fix it. The problem, for example – okay, so – binging and purging, that felt awful. It was just a horrible experience.

Like, I could feel, like, these warning lights dimly going off in my body of, like, this is not – like, something is very wrong internally. And yet I always found this mental acrobatics to justify my eating disorder as the only thing that would fix it. The problem, for example – okay, so – binging and purging, that felt awful. It was just a horrible experience.

So obviously the answer was I needed to just not eat, right? Like that's going to fix it, which is not at all true. It was so inconceivable to me that to feed myself would actually strengthen me. I think this really speaks to how inherently unsustainable an eating disorder is because effectively you are

So obviously the answer was I needed to just not eat, right? Like that's going to fix it, which is not at all true. It was so inconceivable to me that to feed myself would actually strengthen me. I think this really speaks to how inherently unsustainable an eating disorder is because effectively you are

So obviously the answer was I needed to just not eat, right? Like that's going to fix it, which is not at all true. It was so inconceivable to me that to feed myself would actually strengthen me. I think this really speaks to how inherently unsustainable an eating disorder is because effectively you are

crippling your energetic force right like you're you're taking your life force and you're trying to constrict it and say i can live on less and then i can live on even less than that i can live on you in this like you're i felt like i was drawing my my life closer and closer within me and like wrapping it as close as i could around the bones because i felt like somewhere really really deep inside if i just kept this archaeological expedition somewhere some deep down layer of me was good and worthwhile i just had to find it and that mindset is inherently crippling

crippling your energetic force right like you're you're taking your life force and you're trying to constrict it and say i can live on less and then i can live on even less than that i can live on you in this like you're i felt like i was drawing my my life closer and closer within me and like wrapping it as close as i could around the bones because i felt like somewhere really really deep inside if i just kept this archaeological expedition somewhere some deep down layer of me was good and worthwhile i just had to find it and that mindset is inherently crippling

crippling your energetic force right like you're you're taking your life force and you're trying to constrict it and say i can live on less and then i can live on even less than that i can live on you in this like you're i felt like i was drawing my my life closer and closer within me and like wrapping it as close as i could around the bones because i felt like somewhere really really deep inside if i just kept this archaeological expedition somewhere some deep down layer of me was good and worthwhile i just had to find it and that mindset is inherently crippling

compared to you have worth and value exactly as you are, so feed yourself.

compared to you have worth and value exactly as you are, so feed yourself.

compared to you have worth and value exactly as you are, so feed yourself.

Oh, admiration and approval, definitely. Definitely. In fact, I once or twice heard men stand up for me because they saw me running so much. There was one time I dropped into a colleague's barracks room to borrow a book, The Psychology of Killing. I remember that distinctly. Went in, borrowed this book, and at that moment, the NCO on duty walked by.

Oh, admiration and approval, definitely. Definitely. In fact, I once or twice heard men stand up for me because they saw me running so much. There was one time I dropped into a colleague's barracks room to borrow a book, The Psychology of Killing. I remember that distinctly. Went in, borrowed this book, and at that moment, the NCO on duty walked by.