Michelle Williams

And that was, you know, those were in the years after my mother had died and I really was seeking some degree of safety in the world and feeling like held by my father and brothers and just the... Being good, I am certainly not the first daughter to feel like if I'm good, then I will, you know, be filling my role within the family.

Yes, I was.

Yes, I was.

Yes, I was.

You know, we were speaking earlier about eating disorders as a function of seeking control in a world that inherently you cannot control. I feel, too, that the root of that is a desire for safety. And my mother's sudden and violent death felt like being uprooted, that I lost the sense of safety in the world. I lost the sense that you can reasonably expect to live through the day.

You know, we were speaking earlier about eating disorders as a function of seeking control in a world that inherently you cannot control. I feel, too, that the root of that is a desire for safety. And my mother's sudden and violent death felt like being uprooted, that I lost the sense of safety in the world. I lost the sense that you can reasonably expect to live through the day.

You know, we were speaking earlier about eating disorders as a function of seeking control in a world that inherently you cannot control. I feel, too, that the root of that is a desire for safety. And my mother's sudden and violent death felt like being uprooted, that I lost the sense of safety in the world. I lost the sense that you can reasonably expect to live through the day.

And I think many people have that at some point in their lives, like that kind of understanding of your own mortality and your understanding that this is finite and I just happened to have that when I was four years old. And I think that's actually left an incredible, again, you grow and you adapt and you kind of become, you grow around the things that shape you.

And I think many people have that at some point in their lives, like that kind of understanding of your own mortality and your understanding that this is finite and I just happened to have that when I was four years old. And I think that's actually left an incredible, again, you grow and you adapt and you kind of become, you grow around the things that shape you.

And I think many people have that at some point in their lives, like that kind of understanding of your own mortality and your understanding that this is finite and I just happened to have that when I was four years old. And I think that's actually left an incredible, again, you grow and you adapt and you kind of become, you grow around the things that shape you.

And then sometimes you are able to see with perception of like, oh, that has shaped me in a certain way. I tend to be slower to form relationship. I tend to take my time. I tend to hesitate in some ways because you don't know if someone's always going to be there. You know they're not, actually.

And then sometimes you are able to see with perception of like, oh, that has shaped me in a certain way. I tend to be slower to form relationship. I tend to take my time. I tend to hesitate in some ways because you don't know if someone's always going to be there. You know they're not, actually.

And then sometimes you are able to see with perception of like, oh, that has shaped me in a certain way. I tend to be slower to form relationship. I tend to take my time. I tend to hesitate in some ways because you don't know if someone's always going to be there. You know they're not, actually.

That's just like a, just one of the funny, not funny, but one of the strange shadows of losing a parent so young, I think.

That's just like a, just one of the funny, not funny, but one of the strange shadows of losing a parent so young, I think.

That's just like a, just one of the funny, not funny, but one of the strange shadows of losing a parent so young, I think.

Yeah, no, I really appreciate that. And I, you know, I tried to fit in a little bit of optimism at the end of the book because the years since leaving the Marine Corps have been so beautiful. I have been outrageously blessed and just have had a really great, great last decade or so. Yoga was very transformative.

Yeah, no, I really appreciate that. And I, you know, I tried to fit in a little bit of optimism at the end of the book because the years since leaving the Marine Corps have been so beautiful. I have been outrageously blessed and just have had a really great, great last decade or so. Yoga was very transformative.

Yeah, no, I really appreciate that. And I, you know, I tried to fit in a little bit of optimism at the end of the book because the years since leaving the Marine Corps have been so beautiful. I have been outrageously blessed and just have had a really great, great last decade or so. Yoga was very transformative.

I've practiced and taught for almost a decade and just learned different perspectives of feeling like my body is an ally. And not something to subjugate, but something like I think of my body as a teacher and like a very good teacher and a profoundly wise and intuitive teacher. And I know this book is quite dark. I know I worked with some really dark elements within it.