Miriam Lewin

We had decided to take our own lives before having to endure torture, which could lead to us giving away information and that could lead to our friends getting captured. Also, it was an order coming from the leaders of our organization. Don't get captured alive. To me, it was simple. You get captured and they own your body.

They would pass you over from one force to another, or if they wanted to, they would just put a bullet in your head. So they would dictate when and how you died. But with the cyanide pill, we were in control of our death. So it was kind of like a small victory over them, you know?

They would pass you over from one force to another, or if they wanted to, they would just put a bullet in your head. So they would dictate when and how you died. But with the cyanide pill, we were in control of our death. So it was kind of like a small victory over them, you know?

It was raining that night. I notice a car with foggy windows. Inside, I see the silhouettes of three or so men. I start zigzagging my way through the streets and corners to evade it, but sooner or later, it would be there again.

It was raining that night. I notice a car with foggy windows. Inside, I see the silhouettes of three or so men. I start zigzagging my way through the streets and corners to evade it, but sooner or later, it would be there again.

And I keep screaming off the top of my lungs, I'm Miriam Lewin, please help me.

And I keep screaming off the top of my lungs, I'm Miriam Lewin, please help me.

I reach into the pocket of my leather jacket. I take out the cyanide pill and I put it in my mouth. I look up at the sky, and in my head I think, God, thank you for letting me die to help save my friends.

I reach into the pocket of my leather jacket. I take out the cyanide pill and I put it in my mouth. I look up at the sky, and in my head I think, God, thank you for letting me die to help save my friends.

I tried to puncture the pill with my teeth as fast as I could, but the officers catch on and force me to spit it out. I never imagined they would catch me alive. I was young, healthy, but at that moment I didn't hesitate. I just wanted to die.

I tried to puncture the pill with my teeth as fast as I could, but the officers catch on and force me to spit it out. I never imagined they would catch me alive. I was young, healthy, but at that moment I didn't hesitate. I just wanted to die.

He says, Miriam, look at me. I am the man responsible for your life and your death. As long as you collaborate, as long as you're good, nothing will happen to you.

He says, Miriam, look at me. I am the man responsible for your life and your death. As long as you collaborate, as long as you're good, nothing will happen to you.