Mitchell Osmond

Like I had a great life professionally, but why was it I couldn't figure out my life personally?

You know, it was this this duality of feeling powerful at work, but powerless at home.

And so I'm a textbook situation, man, where I grew up, you know, alcoholic father came from a dysfunctional upbringing, drugs, alcohol, crime were in the home growing up.

And I knew it.

What trajectory I was on, I knew that I was destined to do something different, but I just couldn't seem to break that cycle, man.

I kept getting sucked into mistakes that my father had made and his father had made.

And when I would yell at my wife, I could hear his words.

I could hear his voice in mine.

And it was brutal, man.

And so I was kind of stuck with that duality of feeling like I was two different people trapped in the same body.

And the second point, the turning point for me was literally seven days later, after I had this blow up, me and my wife still weren't talking.

I was asked to sing at the funeral of this wealthy man.

He was a philanthropist.

And I was getting ready to sing the last song, side stage.

It was a couple thousand people.

It was a big funeral.

And I overheard the minister say, he said, are you living a life worthy of imitation?

If you were to die tomorrow, would you be proud of the legacy that you left?

And Paul, man, as I began to try and sing out the lyrics of the last song, I could barely choke out the lyrics because all I could think was if this was my funeral, nobody would be saying he inspired me to have an amazing marriage or inspired me to get into shape or inspired me to, you know, get my finances in order.

At that point, they would have probably said he struggled and then it was over, you know, and so I was faced with this visceral fear.