Moana Hope

Like I knew the nurses so well because we were in there so often.

They would have a bed ready for me and I loved going to hospital with him because it was the only time I would eat three meals a day, right, because they would give me food.

And I would get to have biscuits for the first time in my life.

It was just cool.

And so when he died, I remember I was like –

sitting in the lounge room.

And I remember my mom, there was a call came in and my mom came in to pick up the phone.

And I just remember watching her just like almost faint with crying and sadness.

And she was on the floor.

My brothers were holding her.

I was like, what is going on?

Like, what's even happened here?

I don't even think we actually got told he died, to be honest.

I think just we're going to the hospital.

And we went and I walked in and he was dead.

I remember going home after that and laying on my bed and going, well, at least he's not going to hit her anymore.

It's not even about me.

It was about her.

It was about at least he's not going to harm her anymore.

And so for me it was more, yeah, I lost the guy that I thought was my best mate, but back then he was my best mate.