Monica Lewinsky

Yeah.

I can go there because I've had to go there in different environments with different people and become whatever I thought they wanted me to be.

Are you also saying, though, that you sort of soothed yourself when you were scared and alone by different –

Versions or your imagination?

My imagination was always incredibly fertile, really.

But, like, I would play games.

This is really, I mean, I'm going to go there with you.

But, like, if I'd come home from school and I was, like, jumping over the cracks in the sidewalk.

And you know the whole thing about you step on a crack, you break your back, whatever.

But I would play these games.

Like, if I can get on the, this is probably, like, very OCD.

Maybe, maybe not.

Where I would, like, if I could jump over all the cracks and not step on anything, my mom would be home for dinner.

If I could, it's like a lot of wishful, magical thinking.

So it was like a lot of my stuff was like around trying to create safety.

And so it's sort of interesting to me that I would go into a profession where like, I'm never in the same place.

I'm always with new people.

You know, it's like, I haven't been on a show, like even on American Horror Story.

It's like, I was on the show for many years, but yeah.

Different stories, different characters, some of the same actors, some not.