Monica Lewinsky
đ€ SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
Yeah.
I can go there because I've had to go there in different environments with different people and become whatever I thought they wanted me to be.
Are you also saying, though, that you sort of soothed yourself when you were scared and alone by different â
Versions or your imagination?
My imagination was always incredibly fertile, really.
But, like, I would play games.
This is really, I mean, I'm going to go there with you.
But, like, if I'd come home from school and I was, like, jumping over the cracks in the sidewalk.
And you know the whole thing about you step on a crack, you break your back, whatever.
But I would play these games.
Like, if I can get on the, this is probably, like, very OCD.
Maybe, maybe not.
Where I would, like, if I could jump over all the cracks and not step on anything, my mom would be home for dinner.
If I could, it's like a lot of wishful, magical thinking.
So it was like a lot of my stuff was like around trying to create safety.
And so it's sort of interesting to me that I would go into a profession where like, I'm never in the same place.
I'm always with new people.
You know, it's like, I haven't been on a show, like even on American Horror Story.
It's like, I was on the show for many years, but yeah.
Different stories, different characters, some of the same actors, some not.