Monica Lewinsky

Well, I think – I can't say this for – you know, for everybody who gets involved in a relationship with someone who's, I'm trying to think of the right way to say it, but it's like, I think not everybody who has an affair feels this way, but I think a lot of especially young women who get involved in affairs, it already starts with a lack of self-esteem and self-worth. So I already had issues.

It was this... It's kind of your worst nightmare. All the worst things that you think about yourself and say to yourself, you then start to have reflected and amplified by the whole world. And so... It was if it hadn't been for my family continuing to remind me of my true self. And then eventually when I was able to have my friends come in, I don't think I would have been able to make it through.

It was this... It's kind of your worst nightmare. All the worst things that you think about yourself and say to yourself, you then start to have reflected and amplified by the whole world. And so... It was if it hadn't been for my family continuing to remind me of my true self. And then eventually when I was able to have my friends come in, I don't think I would have been able to make it through.

It was this... It's kind of your worst nightmare. All the worst things that you think about yourself and say to yourself, you then start to have reflected and amplified by the whole world. And so... It was if it hadn't been for my family continuing to remind me of my true self. And then eventually when I was able to have my friends come in, I don't think I would have been able to make it through.

I think there were really sort of two parts of me. There was both this more damaged younger part of me who was soaking up all the negativity and And it was like a tsunami and just making a bad situation worse. And then there was a, you know, maybe a future version of me or a... like a higher self or whatever, who was angry, who started to get angry.

I think there were really sort of two parts of me. There was both this more damaged younger part of me who was soaking up all the negativity and And it was like a tsunami and just making a bad situation worse. And then there was a, you know, maybe a future version of me or a... like a higher self or whatever, who was angry, who started to get angry.

I think there were really sort of two parts of me. There was both this more damaged younger part of me who was soaking up all the negativity and And it was like a tsunami and just making a bad situation worse. And then there was a, you know, maybe a future version of me or a... like a higher self or whatever, who was angry, who started to get angry.

So it was, there were times that I was angry or frustrated. I was so humiliated.

So it was, there were times that I was angry or frustrated. I was so humiliated.

So it was, there were times that I was angry or frustrated. I was so humiliated.

I think what was interesting that I started to see in the public arena was that Very sadly, it was a lot of women who said worse things about me than the men. The men told a lot of jokes, right? So the late night hosts. I think when Jay Leno retired, some media... boop-de-boop, whatever, organization, had done a study and listed the top 10 targets, his top 10 targets of his late night show.

I think what was interesting that I started to see in the public arena was that Very sadly, it was a lot of women who said worse things about me than the men. The men told a lot of jokes, right? So the late night hosts. I think when Jay Leno retired, some media... boop-de-boop, whatever, organization, had done a study and listed the top 10 targets, his top 10 targets of his late night show.

I think what was interesting that I started to see in the public arena was that Very sadly, it was a lot of women who said worse things about me than the men. The men told a lot of jokes, right? So the late night hosts. I think when Jay Leno retired, some media... boop-de-boop, whatever, organization, had done a study and listed the top 10 targets, his top 10 targets of his late night show.

And I was on that list. And so, and I was the only person who wasn't a public figure in this, you know, these are... So it was... I think the men told the jokes, the women sort of eviscerated me. And look, also, let's recognize that while there were so many ways that I think Bill's behavior was more reprehensible than mine, I did make mistakes. So I think we see it very differently now.

And I was on that list. And so, and I was the only person who wasn't a public figure in this, you know, these are... So it was... I think the men told the jokes, the women sort of eviscerated me. And look, also, let's recognize that while there were so many ways that I think Bill's behavior was more reprehensible than mine, I did make mistakes. So I think we see it very differently now.

And I was on that list. And so, and I was the only person who wasn't a public figure in this, you know, these are... So it was... I think the men told the jokes, the women sort of eviscerated me. And look, also, let's recognize that while there were so many ways that I think Bill's behavior was more reprehensible than mine, I did make mistakes. So I think we see it very differently now.

And even through that lens, I still made mistakes. I still did things that were wrong.

And even through that lens, I still made mistakes. I still did things that were wrong.

And even through that lens, I still made mistakes. I still did things that were wrong.

Well, I mean, I think that it really was the younger generation. When I wrote my first person essay for Vanity Fair in 2014, it was your generation and the younger generations that really