Monica Loughman

It was it was complicated.

I will say that it was.

There wasn't it's one thing I will say about her and which I will always love about her is when she spoke, I kind of went into a into a kind of a dream.

You know, my body would relax like she could talk about wallpaper, but it's something that we don't acknowledge anymore.

You know, with a birth mother, the kind of link that I didn't have with my other mother, who I would do anything for.

But as soon as she spoke, I was just, I was out.

And I was with her for her, I was very blessed to be with her for when she died.

And I sat with her for three days.

I went for a shower that was about five minutes away.

And I don't shower fast.

I'm very fast at everything I do.

I'm used to quick changes.

So it's like in, out, you know, I'm like head and shoulders tall.

three-in-one kind of girl, go.

And she passed when I was absent.

And when I went in, I just scooped her up.

It's so lovely to see you.