Natalie Joy

I had zero sympathy for him.

Even after the murder, I'll be honest, after the murder, I was like, I've heard nothing but bad things about this kid.

It sucks that he died, but, like, he also killed Mallory and lots of things, has been accused of all sorts of things.

But then I, it took me a long time to really realize that, like,

He never had a chance in the way that he was raised.

Him and Buster never really had a chance to be normal.

They were raised by this psychopath who taught them that their name and everything and that they were better than everybody else.

And that, like, I heard – I remember I talked to a couple of Buster and Paul's teachers, and they were saying even when these kids were little in school, teachers were not allowed to discipline the Murdoch kids.

No way.

Buster and Paul could walk in late to class every day and teachers weren't allowed to do anything about it because their mom worked for the school or their grandma worked for the school board.

And so they just had they just constantly were protecting these kids and they never, ever told them no or gave them any sense of accountability in life.

So I really have gained a lot of empathy for both Paul and Buster.

in the last couple years, and especially, I mean, watching Johnny in the show go through all the emotions of what Paul was going through at that time, and I believe that he was.

I think that that's something that I've come to recognize.

I was really, really hard in my reporting of Paul for years, and then I started to realize, like, oh, wow, the evil is all his father, and...

yes, he made bad decisions, and yes, he could have been a better person, but he also didn't have a chance.

He died at 22, and nobody really makes great decisions before they're 22, and it's sad that he never got redemption and he never got a chance.

I do think that he was...

more emotionally connected than Buster.

I would say that, like, I think a big problem in their family was that Paul would kind of challenge his father in a way that Buster wouldn't.