Natalie Kitroeff

She says it wasn't a poem.

It read like a poem.

But this one was about...

That nobody could ever know how she really felt.

That she would wear a smile and everybody needed to think that she was happy, but that she wasn't happy.

And her body was ugly.

And they have their computers bark alerted.

And bark alerts is like the school has an alert where the school computers and if you type something in there or look up something, it'll alert that, you know, the administration that this is alarming.

And this was the third incident where she had done something that alerted the principal that.

And so after one of the times she got in trouble, I said, I'm going to go through your phone.

And she didn't like that.

I don't use that privilege a lot.

But I started seeing messages to friends that had been happening over the year where she would say, I'm feeling it again.

Like, I just – you know, are you there?

Like, she would text her friends and ask if they were there.

So apparently she'd been leaning on her friends for a while when she was feeling these feelings.

And she started –

It was a tool, but it had like a screwdriver on it.

And I think she was using that to scrape herself, to cut herself.

So I kept seeing these marks on her arm.