Nathan 'Curly' Marks

I had such a huge ego as well and that was when my – like I was like – because I was always fighting it from a young age and then as I got to 18 and out in town, everyone kind of knew me and I had this ego and like because I knew I could kind of blue and people – I was always fighting a lot like in the pub and that and I kind of had this ego after it, you know what I mean?

Showing up for it, for sure, mate.

And then when I had that there and I came there, it was like that whole part of myself just vanished and was gone.

And then it was just like I just could be who I wanted to be in life and not have to try and put on a persona or try and act a certain way because it's a certain way I've been molded.

And then when I finished, I just sat there and I was like, I just feel I can just be whoever I actually want to be in life and there's no strings attached to me anymore.

It's crazy, bro.

I think I had, I just, oh.

mate it was like i had um it was like i had all these chips on my shoulder were gone and i could just i just walked around and talked and was not like i wasn't trying to be because from a young age like when i was like so when i was four um i i had never cried since i was four years old

Since 27... From four to 27, I never cried once.

Really?

Because at my dad's funeral, my uncles come up to me and they were pretty rough people and they were like, you can never cry, you're a man, and gave me a bit of a tail up and that before the funeral.

Yeah, right.

And it wasn't that I don't want to cry, I'm not a pussy.

That wasn't my mentality.

I just could never do it.

And the first time I cried was at my brother's wedding when I gave his speech as his best man.

That was the first time I cried since then.

But that was like that...

That was like the one thing that my mind was kind of fucked up from that.

Yeah.