Nick Middaugh

Yeah. And I, you know, I think that's like a huge barrier for people like newly sober people. Some of those challenges is like, Hey, you've got to like, you got to understand, like, just because you get sober doesn't mean people are going to like you.

Yeah. And it's hard to, it's hard to square because, you know, I'll give you an example of something that happened when I was a drunk that, um, came up after I got sober and I didn't even realize that. And it's taken some healing, um, and some work on both me and my wife's part. But, um, at some point, uh, my wife was pregnant, um, a couple of years after my oldest was born and,

Yeah. And it's hard to, it's hard to square because, you know, I'll give you an example of something that happened when I was a drunk that, um, came up after I got sober and I didn't even realize that. And it's taken some healing, um, and some work on both me and my wife's part. But, um, at some point, uh, my wife was pregnant, um, a couple of years after my oldest was born and,

Yeah. And it's hard to, it's hard to square because, you know, I'll give you an example of something that happened when I was a drunk that, um, came up after I got sober and I didn't even realize that. And it's taken some healing, um, and some work on both me and my wife's part. But, um, at some point, uh, my wife was pregnant, um, a couple of years after my oldest was born and,

She came out, I was like sitting in front of the TV, just drinking, like had the day off. It was late enough, started drinking. And she came out and told me like, hey, I miscarried. And my answer at the time to that was, I'm just going to get drunk. And went on. I mean, I completely memory hold that with how much I was drinking. And once I got sober, that was something that she told me about.

She came out, I was like sitting in front of the TV, just drinking, like had the day off. It was late enough, started drinking. And she came out and told me like, hey, I miscarried. And my answer at the time to that was, I'm just going to get drunk. And went on. I mean, I completely memory hold that with how much I was drinking. And once I got sober, that was something that she told me about.

She came out, I was like sitting in front of the TV, just drinking, like had the day off. It was late enough, started drinking. And she came out and told me like, hey, I miscarried. And my answer at the time to that was, I'm just going to get drunk. And went on. I mean, I completely memory hold that with how much I was drinking. And once I got sober, that was something that she told me about.

And part of the struggle of getting here and trying to be sober and walking a better path, going to therapy, being a better human being, is I had to square with myself that level of just being a wretched human being. Because she went through that shit alone while I went and got drunk. It's rough. It's rough. One advice I can give you is just to face it head on. Yeah.

And part of the struggle of getting here and trying to be sober and walking a better path, going to therapy, being a better human being, is I had to square with myself that level of just being a wretched human being. Because she went through that shit alone while I went and got drunk. It's rough. It's rough. One advice I can give you is just to face it head on. Yeah.

And part of the struggle of getting here and trying to be sober and walking a better path, going to therapy, being a better human being, is I had to square with myself that level of just being a wretched human being. Because she went through that shit alone while I went and got drunk. It's rough. It's rough. One advice I can give you is just to face it head on. Yeah.

I mean, you've got to have those conversations. You've got to start trying to put fire on all those bridges you burnt. And some people aren't going to. I don't know if that's a good analogy.

I mean, you've got to have those conversations. You've got to start trying to put fire on all those bridges you burnt. And some people aren't going to. I don't know if that's a good analogy.

I mean, you've got to have those conversations. You've got to start trying to put fire on all those bridges you burnt. And some people aren't going to. I don't know if that's a good analogy.

Yeah. I mean, I'll tell you what, like you're standing outside of a structure fire, at least for me, like the house that's fully developed and you're getting your hoses out and you're getting ready to do whatever you got to do. There's a certain beauty to fire. But then also you're like, oh shit, this is somebody's house. Like, this is like, this is terrible, you know?

Yeah. I mean, I'll tell you what, like you're standing outside of a structure fire, at least for me, like the house that's fully developed and you're getting your hoses out and you're getting ready to do whatever you got to do. There's a certain beauty to fire. But then also you're like, oh shit, this is somebody's house. Like, this is like, this is terrible, you know?

Yeah. I mean, I'll tell you what, like you're standing outside of a structure fire, at least for me, like the house that's fully developed and you're getting your hoses out and you're getting ready to do whatever you got to do. There's a certain beauty to fire. But then also you're like, oh shit, this is somebody's house. Like, this is like, this is terrible, you know?

But, but yeah, no, like I had to, part of being sober is like, you gotta square that shit. So I hold myself to a higher standard and I'm just trying to improve and walk on that path and understand that, like, hey, I deserve to be sober at the end of the day. Because it's going to pay dividends to every aspect of my life, whether it's professional or it's relational or whatever it might be.

But, but yeah, no, like I had to, part of being sober is like, you gotta square that shit. So I hold myself to a higher standard and I'm just trying to improve and walk on that path and understand that, like, hey, I deserve to be sober at the end of the day. Because it's going to pay dividends to every aspect of my life, whether it's professional or it's relational or whatever it might be.

But, but yeah, no, like I had to, part of being sober is like, you gotta square that shit. So I hold myself to a higher standard and I'm just trying to improve and walk on that path and understand that, like, hey, I deserve to be sober at the end of the day. Because it's going to pay dividends to every aspect of my life, whether it's professional or it's relational or whatever it might be.

Yeah. And I think that's part of it. Like it really has to start with yourself, but also like once you get there, you realize like, I was nothing but a monster for my wife and my kid, and they don't deserve that shit.