Nigel Brennan

They're delivering the messages for you.

Yeah, it was like, oh, my God, if they catch us, they will kill us.

There were times where just my belief in humanity was really tested.

I can remember a period, I think it was one evening, and we were down, I think it was down near Keshmayu.

hearing them close Amanda's door and then hearing a plate sort of skittle across the floor and her saying, no, no, no.

And then just her screaming for hours.

And then again, readying myself for them to walk through my door and do the same to me and finally falling asleep and then waking up the next morning to her screaming again as they were torturing her.

You know, and I think that went on for hours again that day and then hours again the next day.

It's just like,

What is wrong with human beings?

How could you do this to another human, just for the greed of money?

And I understand why they did what they did.

When you live in a country and you earn less than a dollar a day, then kidnapping does become, I guess, an option for people who are so impoverished.

But having to sit there and listen to that was just absolutely heartbreaking.

And there was a part of me that, you know, after we were released, it was just like, I have survivor's guilt.

I feel guilty that I didn't protect you better, that I didn't say something to them.

And I said that to Amanda and she said, I'm glad you didn't.

Glad you didn't say that to them because they would have used that as a weapon against you and they would have tortured me further.

I can remember talking to my sister.

So, like, I spoke to my sister on day 11.